You are friendly, kind, and caring
sensitive, loyal, and understanding,
humorous, fun, secure, and true
always there... yeah that's you.
Special, accepting, exciting, wise
truthful, helpful, with honest brown eyes
confining, forgiving, cheerful and bright
yes that you...not one bit of spite.
your one of a kind, diff rent from others
generous, charming, but not one that smothers
optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game
but not just another... in the long chain
appreciative, warm, precious like gold
our friendship wont tarnish or never grow
old.
you'll always be there, i know that's true
I'll always be here; always for you.
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Forget Him
I'll forget his name,
Forget his face,
Forget his touch,
His warm embrace.
I'll forget the love
I thought I knew,
And remember he has
Someone new.
I'll forget him when
They play our song,
And remember when I'd cry
All night long.
I'll forget how close
We used to be,
And remember he chose
To leave me.
I'll forget how I
Memorized his walk,
Forget how long
We used to talk.
I'll forget the things
He used to say,
And remember he chose
Not to stay.
I'll forget his laugh,
Forget his grin,
Forget how his smile
Would make me
Melt within.
I'll forget the way
He'd hold me tight,
And remember he's dreaming
Of her tonight.
I'll forget the time
That went so fast,
Forget the love
That wouldn't last.
I'll forget he said
He'd leave me never,
And remember he is
Gone forever...
I'm sure I'll learn
To forget all this
But the one thing
I'll always remember
Is I really wanted him
To be my first kiss...
Forget his face,
Forget his touch,
His warm embrace.
I'll forget the love
I thought I knew,
And remember he has
Someone new.
I'll forget him when
They play our song,
And remember when I'd cry
All night long.
I'll forget how close
We used to be,
And remember he chose
To leave me.
I'll forget how I
Memorized his walk,
Forget how long
We used to talk.
I'll forget the things
He used to say,
And remember he chose
Not to stay.
I'll forget his laugh,
Forget his grin,
Forget how his smile
Would make me
Melt within.
I'll forget the way
He'd hold me tight,
And remember he's dreaming
Of her tonight.
I'll forget the time
That went so fast,
Forget the love
That wouldn't last.
I'll forget he said
He'd leave me never,
And remember he is
Gone forever...
I'm sure I'll learn
To forget all this
But the one thing
I'll always remember
Is I really wanted him
To be my first kiss...
Where did I go wrong?
Where did I go wrong?
Was I too closed up and scared?
I assumed our friendship was strong
And that is was something special we shared
I know I sound dramatic
Depressed, alone.
Maybe even pathetic
But was I so wrong?
I lost you now
Years of friendship down the drain
It hurts so much to know
That never again we will dance together in the rain
We had days of laughter and years of fun
How can you say that you are done?
Done with me,
Done with all that you see
I never knew I was that bad
Since when do I only make you mad?
Maybe I was wrong
Maybe this was my fault
Maybe I should have known
Maybe, maybe, you are right
I guess it is impossible to remain friends with someone like me
When I am really as selfish and anti-social as you say me to be
But I have a little something to say too:
I know for sure, that I’m going to miss you
Beautiful Rain
As I watched the pouring rain
The sun shined on every drop
Just admiring the beauty
of one drop.
I never felt the rain on my skin
I could only see it coming down
From the clouds hanging
In the blue sky
It seemed as if... the rain
Is coming from nothing
But still washing
Our world.
As the rain dropped on my notes
It blurred away all of my thoughts
The only thing that swirled in my mind
was...
How beautiful it was
To feel safe under the water drops...
The sun shined on every drop
Just admiring the beauty
of one drop.
I never felt the rain on my skin
I could only see it coming down
From the clouds hanging
In the blue sky
It seemed as if... the rain
Is coming from nothing
But still washing
Our world.
As the rain dropped on my notes
It blurred away all of my thoughts
The only thing that swirled in my mind
was...
How beautiful it was
To feel safe under the water drops...
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
A Black Woman, Nothing Else
There used to be a time when
I was ashamed of my skin.
I received tormenting jokes
from all of my friends.
Of course it wasn't done
to make me feel this way
But being black gave me much dismay.
"African, charcoal, Black Baby",
I would hear
But no one even noticed or knew
That I had silent tears.
Those names became nicknames and
I'd hear them everyday at school
‘Cause when I was young and growing up
I'd play by my peers rules.
One day when I was still young
My father left us all
And married a white woman
Who beckoned his every call.
I was really ashamed of my skin then,
I thought it was very bad,
I thought the white woman had something
Which I could never have.
But one day when I was still young
I met a black lady darker than I was,
She cherished and boasted that her
Color was a gift from above.
She told me that I was beautiful -
Something no one had ever done.
She said, "your skin is
So black and smooth-
Which shows the perfecting of the sun".
She said, "To match the pretty black skin
Your teeth are white as snow
And I'm sure that you will show them
Everywhere that you go".
Everyday she would tell me this
And her words began to spread.
They came from other people
I never even met.
The words of my friends changed to,
"Let me feel your face
I was ashamed of my skin.
I received tormenting jokes
from all of my friends.
Of course it wasn't done
to make me feel this way
But being black gave me much dismay.
"African, charcoal, Black Baby",
I would hear
But no one even noticed or knew
That I had silent tears.
Those names became nicknames and
I'd hear them everyday at school
‘Cause when I was young and growing up
I'd play by my peers rules.
One day when I was still young
My father left us all
And married a white woman
Who beckoned his every call.
I was really ashamed of my skin then,
I thought it was very bad,
I thought the white woman had something
Which I could never have.
But one day when I was still young
I met a black lady darker than I was,
She cherished and boasted that her
Color was a gift from above.
She told me that I was beautiful -
Something no one had ever done.
She said, "your skin is
So black and smooth-
Which shows the perfecting of the sun".
She said, "To match the pretty black skin
Your teeth are white as snow
And I'm sure that you will show them
Everywhere that you go".
Everyday she would tell me this
And her words began to spread.
They came from other people
I never even met.
The words of my friends changed to,
"Let me feel your face
And let me see you grin"-
For sister, you are beautiful-
Be proud of the color of your skin.
Now, I'm not ashamed of my skin
Though obstacles it may bring.
I proclaim to the world that I am
A Black Woman, the element of spring.
I blossom with happiness
And pride within myself
For I am A Black Woman
And I wish to be nothing else.
For sister, you are beautiful-
Be proud of the color of your skin.
Now, I'm not ashamed of my skin
Though obstacles it may bring.
I proclaim to the world that I am
A Black Woman, the element of spring.
I blossom with happiness
And pride within myself
For I am A Black Woman
And I wish to be nothing else.
Monday, November 28, 2011
The End
I thought I couldn't survive another day after it ended, but i did, for you.
and i thrived on hope and the happy memories, those could always make me smile.
and then you took those memories away and spoiled them all,
mutilating and deforming them with all your lies.
and when the memories left, so did my hope.
now I'm left with nothing, and i cant survive another single day.
goodbye. remember ill always love you.
and i thrived on hope and the happy memories, those could always make me smile.
and then you took those memories away and spoiled them all,
mutilating and deforming them with all your lies.
and when the memories left, so did my hope.
now I'm left with nothing, and i cant survive another single day.
goodbye. remember ill always love you.
Proof Heart
The days filled with longing, for you ever more
but you left me behind in one second, to be drowned in dust.
I will never understand..
I loved you, cared for you,
would break my soul in half for you,
yet you left me here to rust.
I deny the emotions rushing like a storm,
even if I died tomorrow you'd think nothing of it and walk to another girl or boy...
I know how you work..
you'll leave every memory we had..
glance into the mask I show..
but things are different, I refuse to be your toy..
but you left me behind in one second, to be drowned in dust.
I will never understand..
I loved you, cared for you,
would break my soul in half for you,
yet you left me here to rust.
I deny the emotions rushing like a storm,
even if I died tomorrow you'd think nothing of it and walk to another girl or boy...
I know how you work..
you'll leave every memory we had..
glance into the mask I show..
but things are different, I refuse to be your toy..
Someone I'm Not
Some people say to be like them,
But being unique is good,
It's different
People say different is bad,
Horrible
Not to exist
So are they saying,
That I'M not supposed to exist?
People tell me to be, special
But I can't be special when I'm being forced
I'm being told to be someone I'm not
Sure, I may not be pretty, smart, or athletic
Or preppy, popular, and rich
But beauty doesn't come from money, or looks
It counts from what is inside
From being yourself,
And not someone you're not
But being unique is good,
It's different
People say different is bad,
Horrible
Not to exist
So are they saying,
That I'M not supposed to exist?
People tell me to be, special
But I can't be special when I'm being forced
I'm being told to be someone I'm not
Sure, I may not be pretty, smart, or athletic
Or preppy, popular, and rich
But beauty doesn't come from money, or looks
It counts from what is inside
From being yourself,
And not someone you're not
The Venom of the mind...
Hold my hand
Trust in me
Walk in sand
You will see
Ray of light
Head to toe
See the bright
There we'll go
Afraid not
I am here
Reach the lot
You're a dear
I am bad
You are good
Don't be sad
There's no mood
I lure you
You held it
What to do?
Just feel it
No such fate
It's you fault
No more date
Eat the salt
Suffer here
Feel the pain
You came here
You will drain
Trust in me
Walk in sand
You will see
Ray of light
Head to toe
See the bright
There we'll go
Afraid not
I am here
Reach the lot
You're a dear
I am bad
You are good
Don't be sad
There's no mood
I lure you
You held it
What to do?
Just feel it
No such fate
It's you fault
No more date
Eat the salt
Suffer here
Feel the pain
You came here
You will drain
Bold Beauty
His innocent ways,
With every words he says.
Darkening eyes,
That hypnotize my mind.
The sly smile that he wears,
Makes it hard not to stare.
Thoughts that I wish would disappear,
From his mind as he faces a mirror.
Quickly turning away,
After one look he sighs in dismay.
If only you would see,
What I see when you look at me.
Your beauty with in and out,
Shown amongst you without a doubt.
Bold and Beauty.
No denying,
What I see.
Your heart, your soul
Extra ordinary like no other fool.
No one can compare.
Your voice whispers,
Causing me to smile.
Washing away my fear and anger,
With one touch of your hand.
His vibrant actions,
Cause my unforgettable attraction.
I love you dear.
A second chance,
To restart what unfolded.
By your side,
Never wanting to leave.
My love.
Bold and Beauty mixed with in.
If only you would see what I see,
When I look at you.
Your sly smile.
Darkening eyes.
Vibrant moves.
Unforgettable words.
You are Extra ordinary.
With every words he says.
Darkening eyes,
That hypnotize my mind.
The sly smile that he wears,
Makes it hard not to stare.
Thoughts that I wish would disappear,
From his mind as he faces a mirror.
Quickly turning away,
After one look he sighs in dismay.
If only you would see,
What I see when you look at me.
Your beauty with in and out,
Shown amongst you without a doubt.
Bold and Beauty.
No denying,
What I see.
Your heart, your soul
Extra ordinary like no other fool.
No one can compare.
Your voice whispers,
Causing me to smile.
Washing away my fear and anger,
With one touch of your hand.
His vibrant actions,
Cause my unforgettable attraction.
I love you dear.
A second chance,
To restart what unfolded.
By your side,
Never wanting to leave.
My love.
Bold and Beauty mixed with in.
If only you would see what I see,
When I look at you.
Your sly smile.
Darkening eyes.
Vibrant moves.
Unforgettable words.
You are Extra ordinary.
Light
Here I lay
Shrouded in cold, ever lasting darkness
No past...
No Present...
No future....
But out of no where
A ray of light appears, washing away the darkness
And in that light
There's an angel
Smiling as she extends her hand
Pulling me into her warm embrace
She tells me that there's nothing to fear
Slowly she takes me into the light, washing away all of my fears and my pain
"Don't let go" I whisper, feeling the light touch my heart
But as soon as it came, it was gone
As the darkness reappears, I see a light glowing in my chest
Then I hear her voice...
Calling softly from the fearsome dark
"I won't let you go"
Shrouded in cold, ever lasting darkness
No past...
No Present...
No future....
But out of no where
A ray of light appears, washing away the darkness
And in that light
There's an angel
Smiling as she extends her hand
Pulling me into her warm embrace
She tells me that there's nothing to fear
Slowly she takes me into the light, washing away all of my fears and my pain
"Don't let go" I whisper, feeling the light touch my heart
But as soon as it came, it was gone
As the darkness reappears, I see a light glowing in my chest
Then I hear her voice...
Calling softly from the fearsome dark
"I won't let you go"
Temptation
Lays their on the floor with tears in her eyes.
What happened to her a thousand reasons to smile?
Completely shattered inside.
With not knowing whether to continue or not.
Wears a smile so big no one can see through to see her pain.
So tempted to go back to her old friend .
Who's been hidden in a box for no one to find.
Ready to be visited one more time.
So lost in this world feel so alone.
What happened to her a thousand reasons to smile?
Completely shattered inside.
With not knowing whether to continue or not.
Wears a smile so big no one can see through to see her pain.
So tempted to go back to her old friend .
Who's been hidden in a box for no one to find.
Ready to be visited one more time.
So lost in this world feel so alone.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
I'm a boy, and i like boys
I'm a boy
And i like eyeliner
Deal with it,
It's whoI am
I'm a boy
And i like Lady gaga
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And I like nailpolish
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like hello kitty
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like glitter
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like poetry
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like chic flicks
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like acting
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like boys
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And I am GAY
Accept it,
Because I'm never changing
And i like eyeliner
Deal with it,
It's whoI am
I'm a boy
And i like Lady gaga
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And I like nailpolish
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like hello kitty
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like glitter
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like poetry
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like chic flicks
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like acting
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like boys
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And I am GAY
Accept it,
Because I'm never changing
You and I
A little more time and you will see
It is meant to be, You and me
Time is a wonder, A thought to ponder
How long will I wait, For you to take
our hands held,Arms wrapped around
Our two feet firm on the ground
No one will touch us, Tell us were wrong
Cause whenever we're together its a song
One of love, and people together
For its you and me forever
Only time will tell, Take me from this hell
Give me your heart, And mix it with mine
Click Clock is the sound that it makes
With you next to me I will always wake
Up close next to you face to face
Together both our hearts will race
Don't play this game that they play with myhead
Because surelly that'll be the reason to be dead
The clock on the wall keeps on turning
Wanting you in my arms to stop from hurting
I'll wait right here until your ready
We can take it slow and steady
So let me know what you want
i lay right here till its thought
My six last words I give to you
I want you more and more
So before you leave out that door
Let me know its for sure
It is meant to be, You and me
Time is a wonder, A thought to ponder
How long will I wait, For you to take
our hands held,Arms wrapped around
Our two feet firm on the ground
No one will touch us, Tell us were wrong
Cause whenever we're together its a song
One of love, and people together
For its you and me forever
Only time will tell, Take me from this hell
Give me your heart, And mix it with mine
Click Clock is the sound that it makes
With you next to me I will always wake
Up close next to you face to face
Together both our hearts will race
Don't play this game that they play with myhead
Because surelly that'll be the reason to be dead
The clock on the wall keeps on turning
Wanting you in my arms to stop from hurting
I'll wait right here until your ready
We can take it slow and steady
So let me know what you want
i lay right here till its thought
My six last words I give to you
I want you more and more
So before you leave out that door
Let me know its for sure
Her suicide
This racket I hear in the back of my head
I hear rambling, from the dead
The love you once showed, now blown
This is how it needs to be known
Her tears, Made of crystal
The mind gone by a pistol
One last breathe to let loose
The knot tied in a noose
Her two hands on her chest
While they lie her down to rest
Everyone looks and crys real hard
A memorial in the yard
A girl who barely knew the world
She thought it was all a chore
When all the boys called her a whore
She knew she didn't want it no more
Shes dead and gone and they now care
Her heart is gone without dispare
With friends and family all around
They all look down at the ground
Now three years and your still gone
At this grave your name in stone
You were to young to have left this life
You ended it all by the knife
I hear rambling, from the dead
The love you once showed, now blown
This is how it needs to be known
Her tears, Made of crystal
The mind gone by a pistol
One last breathe to let loose
The knot tied in a noose
Her two hands on her chest
While they lie her down to rest
Everyone looks and crys real hard
A memorial in the yard
A girl who barely knew the world
She thought it was all a chore
When all the boys called her a whore
She knew she didn't want it no more
Shes dead and gone and they now care
Her heart is gone without dispare
With friends and family all around
They all look down at the ground
Now three years and your still gone
At this grave your name in stone
You were to young to have left this life
You ended it all by the knife
What To Say When Your Boyfriend Breaks Up With You (applicable to guys and girls)
• I think it’s probably for the best. I didn’t want to hurt your
feelings, but I realised a while ago that I see you as more of a brother
figure.
• That's alright, because I love you BUT I'm not in love with you.
• I had a feeling your heart wasn’t in it anymore, because there didn’t seem to be any passion there.
• I think I’ve been guilty of romanticizing the whole thing. You’re not really everything I thought you’d be.
• That's okay, I know I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable!
• If you're going to hurt me, do it quickly... Because I'm not spending any more time crying over someone who's not going to stick around.
• Thanks - because I fell out of love with you ages ago and just didn't know how to tell you.
• Oh, that's a relief because I've fallen in love with someone else.
• OK, no hard feelings - So is it OK if I date your best friend/boss/brother/father?
• OK, let's bury this relationship and be done with it.
• I want to break up too, because I couldn't stand another day being around you.
• I guess you don’t realize how much you care about someone until they don’t care about you.
• Oh. Poor me!
• Yeah well i was getting kind of bored dating you.
• Well we were going to split over religious differences sooner or later anyway, what with you thinking you're God and me disagreeing...
• Well, all I can say is thankyou for being the one to show me what kind of guy I don't want to be with.
• Gosh you must have been reading my mind - I've wanted out of this crappy relationship with you for weeks now!
• Hmmm. I'm just wondering what I was doing when you decided you didn't want me any more!
• I want to thank you for giving me the worst day of my life.
• Oh thank goodness - now I don't have to pretend I've been happy in our relationship!
• If one day I actually start to matter, let me know.
• Well, my big mistake wasn't falling for you. It was being foolish enough to think you fell for me too.
• That's alright, because I love you BUT I'm not in love with you.
• I had a feeling your heart wasn’t in it anymore, because there didn’t seem to be any passion there.
• I think I’ve been guilty of romanticizing the whole thing. You’re not really everything I thought you’d be.
• That's okay, I know I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable!
• If you're going to hurt me, do it quickly... Because I'm not spending any more time crying over someone who's not going to stick around.
• Thanks - because I fell out of love with you ages ago and just didn't know how to tell you.
• Oh, that's a relief because I've fallen in love with someone else.
• OK, no hard feelings - So is it OK if I date your best friend/boss/brother/father?
• OK, let's bury this relationship and be done with it.
• I want to break up too, because I couldn't stand another day being around you.
• I guess you don’t realize how much you care about someone until they don’t care about you.
• Oh. Poor me!
• Yeah well i was getting kind of bored dating you.
• Well we were going to split over religious differences sooner or later anyway, what with you thinking you're God and me disagreeing...
• Well, all I can say is thankyou for being the one to show me what kind of guy I don't want to be with.
• Gosh you must have been reading my mind - I've wanted out of this crappy relationship with you for weeks now!
• Hmmm. I'm just wondering what I was doing when you decided you didn't want me any more!
• I want to thank you for giving me the worst day of my life.
• Oh thank goodness - now I don't have to pretend I've been happy in our relationship!
• If one day I actually start to matter, let me know.
• Well, my big mistake wasn't falling for you. It was being foolish enough to think you fell for me too.
Remember the Time
Let the sands of time flow by...
Let this life fade away...
Just remember yesterday...
Remember how the war ended...
Remember how time stopped...
Remember the time when we thought we could never die...
Remember the time when we thought we could fly...
Let the sands of time claim another night...
Let this life break away..
Just remember yesterday...
Remember how we shared a dance...
Remember how you gave me a chance...
Remember the time they broke your heart...
Remember the time I found you in the dark...
I wish to mend your heart...
Let the sands of time pass by my life....
Let me fade away...
Only to bring you another day...
Forget yesterday....
Let this life fade away...
Just remember yesterday...
Remember how the war ended...
Remember how time stopped...
Remember the time when we thought we could never die...
Remember the time when we thought we could fly...
Let the sands of time claim another night...
Let this life break away..
Just remember yesterday...
Remember how we shared a dance...
Remember how you gave me a chance...
Remember the time they broke your heart...
Remember the time I found you in the dark...
I wish to mend your heart...
Let the sands of time pass by my life....
Let me fade away...
Only to bring you another day...
Forget yesterday....
Monday, October 31, 2011
Depression
Depression is the color grey on a dull school day
It sounds like a child's cry
and it tastes like a bitter grapefruit
It smells like death in a graveyard
It looks like a hospital
I hope you never catch it's sick
It feels like a rough board
Depression is the color black with no expression
It sounds like silence on a boring day
It tastes like a sour lemon
It smells like a swamp
It looks like people in pain
It makes me feel like someone is
poking me with needles
Depression is the color red in somenone's eyes
after they cry
It sounds like a heart moniter reaching it's last beeps
It taste like a cold piece of ice; tasteless,
it smells like onions
it looks like a blind human beingIt feels like something stinging me
It sounds like a child's cry
and it tastes like a bitter grapefruit
It smells like death in a graveyard
It looks like a hospital
I hope you never catch it's sick
It feels like a rough board
Depression is the color black with no expression
It sounds like silence on a boring day
It tastes like a sour lemon
It smells like a swamp
It looks like people in pain
It makes me feel like someone is
poking me with needles
Depression is the color red in somenone's eyes
after they cry
It sounds like a heart moniter reaching it's last beeps
It taste like a cold piece of ice; tasteless,
it smells like onions
it looks like a blind human beingIt feels like something stinging me
My Last Love Letter
I've made my decision;
I'm not changing my mind.
I'm saying goodbye
To the life I must leave behind.
But I have a task to do
Before I go;
I must write I letter
To my used to be paramour.
You see, I loved him
And I now love him even more
But I made a mistake
In which his heart
I unintentionally tore.
And once I realized
I was a complete fool for doing so,
He found another lover
And I was then engulfed
With agonizing sorrow.
I tried to hide my pain
And put on a smile
Whenever they walk by.
But as soon as I'm alone,
I crawl up into a ball
And spontaneously cry.
I cannot keep this up any longer
So in the letter below
I will write to my former lover
And explain to him
Why I must go:
"By the time you read this
I would already be gone.
But I just want to let you know
What I've been holding in
For so long.
I miss your
Deep blue eyes
Staring passionately into mine.
I miss your
Warm gentle hands;
The feeling I'd get
When yours and mine entwined.
I miss your
Charming sense of humor;
How it always
Brightened up my day.
I even miss your lips;
Though we never kissed,
You always knew
What to say.
I miss your protective arms;
How I felt when they embraced me.
And most of all,
I miss your love;
I can't believe you fell away
So easily.
As I wrap up this letter
With tears falling down my cheeks,
I'll swallow the pill
And finally get to rest
In peace."
I've made my decision;
It's too late to change my mind.
I've said goodbye
To the life I left behind.
I'm not changing my mind.
I'm saying goodbye
To the life I must leave behind.
But I have a task to do
Before I go;
I must write I letter
To my used to be paramour.
You see, I loved him
And I now love him even more
But I made a mistake
In which his heart
I unintentionally tore.
And once I realized
I was a complete fool for doing so,
He found another lover
And I was then engulfed
With agonizing sorrow.
I tried to hide my pain
And put on a smile
Whenever they walk by.
But as soon as I'm alone,
I crawl up into a ball
And spontaneously cry.
I cannot keep this up any longer
So in the letter below
I will write to my former lover
And explain to him
Why I must go:
"By the time you read this
I would already be gone.
But I just want to let you know
What I've been holding in
For so long.
I miss your
Deep blue eyes
Staring passionately into mine.
I miss your
Warm gentle hands;
The feeling I'd get
When yours and mine entwined.
I miss your
Charming sense of humor;
How it always
Brightened up my day.
I even miss your lips;
Though we never kissed,
You always knew
What to say.
I miss your protective arms;
How I felt when they embraced me.
And most of all,
I miss your love;
I can't believe you fell away
So easily.
As I wrap up this letter
With tears falling down my cheeks,
I'll swallow the pill
And finally get to rest
In peace."
I've made my decision;
It's too late to change my mind.
I've said goodbye
To the life I left behind.
Because of You
I wonder if you're proud.
Or if you even know.
You're the reason I let go,
And now I'm not afraid to say it out loud.
You ruined my view on love.
You ruined my view on men.
Now because of you I'll never trust again.
Deep inside is where my heart is shoved.
Now because of you,
I'll never risk it all.
So now it's impossible for me to fall.
Something I was getting used to.
Because of you I don't use my heart.
I ever hardly think.
I wont even blush at a wink.
Thanks for tearing me completely apart.
Because of you I'm stronger.
Because of you I live in fear.
Because of you I bring no one near.
Because of you I'm weaker.
Or if you even know.
You're the reason I let go,
And now I'm not afraid to say it out loud.
You ruined my view on love.
You ruined my view on men.
Now because of you I'll never trust again.
Deep inside is where my heart is shoved.
Now because of you,
I'll never risk it all.
So now it's impossible for me to fall.
Something I was getting used to.
Because of you I don't use my heart.
I ever hardly think.
I wont even blush at a wink.
Thanks for tearing me completely apart.
Because of you I'm stronger.
Because of you I live in fear.
Because of you I bring no one near.
Because of you I'm weaker.
Here Lies The Girl
Here lies the girl
With a broken heart;
The girl who unknowingly
Tore herself apart.
Here lies the girl
With the tear stained eyes;
The girl who fell in love
Which wasn't very wise.
Here lies the girl
With the scarred up skin
For carving up her frail body
Was the only way of controlling
The torture brewing within.
Here lies the girl
With nothing but skin and bone
For her appetite she lost
Because she felt so alone.
Here lies the girl
Who used to be strong.
But the pain made her weak
So she didn't last long.
Here lies the girl
Who tried to get help
But what was supposed to be a cry
Came out as a weak yelp.
Here lies the girl
Who loved him so.
But he stopped loving her
So she had to go.
Here lies the girl
And gripped tightly in her hand
Is a simple piece of paper
That reads her final demand.
It is directed to her love
And using purposefully 2 vowels
Are the words written in blood,
"Happy now?"
With a broken heart;
The girl who unknowingly
Tore herself apart.
Here lies the girl
With the tear stained eyes;
The girl who fell in love
Which wasn't very wise.
Here lies the girl
With the scarred up skin
For carving up her frail body
Was the only way of controlling
The torture brewing within.
Here lies the girl
With nothing but skin and bone
For her appetite she lost
Because she felt so alone.
Here lies the girl
Who used to be strong.
But the pain made her weak
So she didn't last long.
Here lies the girl
Who tried to get help
But what was supposed to be a cry
Came out as a weak yelp.
Here lies the girl
Who loved him so.
But he stopped loving her
So she had to go.
Here lies the girl
And gripped tightly in her hand
Is a simple piece of paper
That reads her final demand.
It is directed to her love
And using purposefully 2 vowels
Are the words written in blood,
"Happy now?"
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Under the net of our kisses
Drunk as drunk on turpentine
From your open kisses,
Your wet body wedged
Between my wet body and the strake
Of our boat that is made of flowers,
Feasted, we guide it - our fingers
Like tallows adorned with yellow metal -
Over the sky's hot rim,
The day's last breath in our sails.
Pinned by the sun between solstice
And equinox, drowsy and tangled together
We drifted for months and woke
With the bitter taste of land on our lips,
Eyelids all sticky, and we longed for lime
And the sound of a rope
Lowering a bucket down its well. Then,
We came by night to the Fortunate Isles,
And lay like fish
Under the net of our kisses.
Pablo Neruda
One
The mosquito is so small
it takes almost nothing to ruin it.
Each leaf, the same.
And the black ant, hurrying.
So many lives, so many fortunes!
Every morning, I walk softly and with forward glances
down to the ponds and through the pinewoods.
Mushrooms, even, have but a brief hour
before the slug creeps to the feast,
before the pine needles hustle down
under the bundles of harsh, beneficent rain.
How many, how many, how many
make up a world!
And then I think of that old idea: the singular
and the eternal.
One cup, in which everything is swirled
back to the color of the sea and sky.
Imagine it!
A shining cup, surely!
In the moment in which there is no wind
over your shoulder,
you stare down into it,
and there you are,
your own darling face, your own eyes.
And then the wind, not thinking of you, just passes by,
touching the ant, the mosquito, the leaf,
and you know what else!
How blue is the sea, how blue is the sky,
how blue and tiny and redeemable everything is, even you,
even your eyes, even your imagination.
Parting Word
As for me
I have no mind
to lose anymore, I am through
with all that -
the sky is my mind
today.(And
it always is
and always was
today.) Blue,
her color
sorrowing over us ...
Does it flow out of or into us, seeing?
Unseen ray of perception the face beams
at things, or
face on which things shine!
I am so glad
that I no longer know,
no longer
care.
And one more thing:
the future?
Never
been there.
Franz Wright
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
How Could You?
How could you turn your back on me when I screamed your name so loud?
How could you let me fall away from you, did you get too proud?
How could you watch as I died a gruesome death and broke apart?
How could you walk away from me, or were you never really there to start?
How could you be so cruel to me when all I ever tried to do was fit in?
How could you be so hypocritical when I spoke my secrets from deep within?
How could you have said those things and pretended that they were true?
How could you have meant them all-I don't understand what you're trying to do.
How could you pull the floor from beneath me when I just learned to stand?
Please, could you just explain this to me, Because I don't understand..
How could you play this game of pretend and play the part of a friend?
How could you be so thoughtless, how could you want this all to end?
How could you look me in the eye and say the cruelest of words?
How could you say you listened to me when you never really heard?
How could you stick this knife in my chest, then twist it where you wanted it to go?
Please answer me all these questions, I really need to know
How could you have done things things and live with no regret?
How could you not remember what you said, how could you forget?
How could you say you'd do it, and then never really follow through
But really, I just have one question to ask ... I just want to know, How could you??
How could you let me fall away from you, did you get too proud?
How could you watch as I died a gruesome death and broke apart?
How could you walk away from me, or were you never really there to start?
How could you be so cruel to me when all I ever tried to do was fit in?
How could you be so hypocritical when I spoke my secrets from deep within?
How could you have said those things and pretended that they were true?
How could you have meant them all-I don't understand what you're trying to do.
How could you pull the floor from beneath me when I just learned to stand?
Please, could you just explain this to me, Because I don't understand..
How could you play this game of pretend and play the part of a friend?
How could you be so thoughtless, how could you want this all to end?
How could you look me in the eye and say the cruelest of words?
How could you say you listened to me when you never really heard?
How could you stick this knife in my chest, then twist it where you wanted it to go?
Please answer me all these questions, I really need to know
How could you have done things things and live with no regret?
How could you not remember what you said, how could you forget?
How could you say you'd do it, and then never really follow through
But really, I just have one question to ask ... I just want to know, How could you??
Just Friends
Sometimes I wonder if you know
Exactly how I feel
Our love is not romantic
But still is very real
We’ve held each other and cried out loud
And shared a kiss or two
But every time you walk away
I lose respect for you
You come to me when you feel bad
And everything goes wrong
Always expecting happiness
And to hear a cheery song
I sympathize and pull you close
And try to ease your pains
When the sun comes back, you are gone
‘Til the next time that it rains
I’ll always be here when you hurt
I know you know I’ll stay
But I’m not sure you’d miss me
If I ever went away
Friends in deed are a very rare find
Not too many stick it out
Through the good times and bad
Giving no cause to doubt
So don’t take that friend for granted
Tomorrow you may be alone
With no one around to help you
And pain like you’ve never known
Exactly how I feel
Our love is not romantic
But still is very real
We’ve held each other and cried out loud
And shared a kiss or two
But every time you walk away
I lose respect for you
You come to me when you feel bad
And everything goes wrong
Always expecting happiness
And to hear a cheery song
I sympathize and pull you close
And try to ease your pains
When the sun comes back, you are gone
‘Til the next time that it rains
I’ll always be here when you hurt
I know you know I’ll stay
But I’m not sure you’d miss me
If I ever went away
Friends in deed are a very rare find
Not too many stick it out
Through the good times and bad
Giving no cause to doubt
So don’t take that friend for granted
Tomorrow you may be alone
With no one around to help you
And pain like you’ve never known
I have a best friend...
I have a best friend...
In the sandbox we used to play,
We grew up with eachother,
but things ended up this way
I began to meet some new friends,
they all seemed pretty nice,
You told me they were the wrong crew,
But I didn't take your advice
I started smoking and drinking,
sneaking out and skipping school,
I never returned your phonecalls
because I was just too cool
I never told you the truth,
I just had to lie,
You told me I needed help
And all I could say was why?
I went to a party that night,
And I got so messed up I couldn't talk,
I tried to cross the street,
but I could barely walk
I heard a loud engine,
and I saw a bright light,
I then felt a great shove,
and I looked to my right
You'd been hit by a Semi,
With all the blood I could see,
You just pushed me out of the way
And that's how it had to be
A tear rolled down my face,
I could tell that you were dead,
I hugged your lifeless body
and wished it was me instead
I've been sober for 3 years,
and I have many more to spend,
I have my guardian angel,
I have a best friend...
In the sandbox we used to play,
We grew up with eachother,
but things ended up this way
I began to meet some new friends,
they all seemed pretty nice,
You told me they were the wrong crew,
But I didn't take your advice
I started smoking and drinking,
sneaking out and skipping school,
I never returned your phonecalls
because I was just too cool
I never told you the truth,
I just had to lie,
You told me I needed help
And all I could say was why?
I went to a party that night,
And I got so messed up I couldn't talk,
I tried to cross the street,
but I could barely walk
I heard a loud engine,
and I saw a bright light,
I then felt a great shove,
and I looked to my right
You'd been hit by a Semi,
With all the blood I could see,
You just pushed me out of the way
And that's how it had to be
A tear rolled down my face,
I could tell that you were dead,
I hugged your lifeless body
and wished it was me instead
I've been sober for 3 years,
and I have many more to spend,
I have my guardian angel,
I have a best friend...
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
I Love you Her x
Her...one word that means so much to me.
A simple reaching from Her,a msg left,a txt and my heart soars.
I try not to say too often those four letters
that mean so much to many.
Not because i don't want do,
oh i do so very much.
I wish i could tell Her every day,
let Her see and feel just what she's
become to me.
But i cannot do this, i have my role,
i must protect our hearts, keep them 'so'
for they, in this life, are promised not to each other, but to others close.
Her, i just wanted, no...needed to tell you,
that even thought i cant, even though we can never be more,
even though i try so hard to keep us 'so'
on this journey,
it is not always easy to keep my heart from
bursting, not always easy to keep my
soul from soaring away.
For that is just what you do to me. x
I love you Her,
No one knows how long this will last,
I hope and pray a long long time
for it noursishes all that i am.
You give me everything and so much more
than i ever dreamed off,
and you will forever, forever be lodged in my heart.
I love you Her,
I just need to tell you that. x
A simple reaching from Her,a msg left,a txt and my heart soars.
I try not to say too often those four letters
that mean so much to many.
Not because i don't want do,
oh i do so very much.
I wish i could tell Her every day,
let Her see and feel just what she's
become to me.
But i cannot do this, i have my role,
i must protect our hearts, keep them 'so'
for they, in this life, are promised not to each other, but to others close.
Her, i just wanted, no...needed to tell you,
that even thought i cant, even though we can never be more,
even though i try so hard to keep us 'so'
on this journey,
it is not always easy to keep my heart from
bursting, not always easy to keep my
soul from soaring away.
For that is just what you do to me. x
I love you Her,
No one knows how long this will last,
I hope and pray a long long time
for it noursishes all that i am.
You give me everything and so much more
than i ever dreamed off,
and you will forever, forever be lodged in my heart.
I love you Her,
I just need to tell you that. x
My Love Rises
If "Be there for you"
Is all my real life about
And "Satisfy your vow"
Are all my attempts about,
Will faith still be our value?
If the fact of being nice,
Could be a good advice.
If I look into your eyes,
It shall not melt like ice,
And cause sorrow to rise!
If there are hate and love,
And, randomely, lothsome
Is part of our unused words,
Love, on purpose, should be
One of used, in preference!
If love is designed for us,
And, in fact, has no cost,
If we know of the beginning,
& are unconscious of the end,
Shouldn't we take advantage?
If you wake up tomorrow,
Your path seems to be narrow,
Our planbet reduced in size,
And goods decreased in prices,
Know that my true love rises!
Is all my real life about
And "Satisfy your vow"
Are all my attempts about,
Will faith still be our value?
If the fact of being nice,
Could be a good advice.
If I look into your eyes,
It shall not melt like ice,
And cause sorrow to rise!
If there are hate and love,
And, randomely, lothsome
Is part of our unused words,
Love, on purpose, should be
One of used, in preference!
If love is designed for us,
And, in fact, has no cost,
If we know of the beginning,
& are unconscious of the end,
Shouldn't we take advantage?
If you wake up tomorrow,
Your path seems to be narrow,
Our planbet reduced in size,
And goods decreased in prices,
Know that my true love rises!
Touched By An Angel With Love
There is nothing else I cherish more in my life
then have you helping me through my strife
in my moments of despair you hear my cry
kiss my tears away and to make me smile you try
You are always near when the tide turns rough
you make situations sound easy when they are tough
you understand my needs even before I speak
you point out my strength when I fall down weak
When I shut you out and sink into my darkness
tenderly you open the door and fill me with happiness
when I fly into a rage and refuse to be calm
you soothe me cradling me in your arms
At times I say leave me alone and go away
you hug me and whisper from you I will never stray
there are times with my words I have hurt you
you forgive and forget and say I love you
When I am sick and feeling very down
you take away my pain and my frown
everything you do and say makes me smile
listening to your voice I forget my tiring miles
You care for me so much you never fail to show
my heart to you it belongs I hope you know
you are the one God sent to me from above
I'm lucky to be touched by an angel with love
then have you helping me through my strife
in my moments of despair you hear my cry
kiss my tears away and to make me smile you try
You are always near when the tide turns rough
you make situations sound easy when they are tough
you understand my needs even before I speak
you point out my strength when I fall down weak
When I shut you out and sink into my darkness
tenderly you open the door and fill me with happiness
when I fly into a rage and refuse to be calm
you soothe me cradling me in your arms
At times I say leave me alone and go away
you hug me and whisper from you I will never stray
there are times with my words I have hurt you
you forgive and forget and say I love you
When I am sick and feeling very down
you take away my pain and my frown
everything you do and say makes me smile
listening to your voice I forget my tiring miles
You care for me so much you never fail to show
my heart to you it belongs I hope you know
you are the one God sent to me from above
I'm lucky to be touched by an angel with love
The Reasons I Love You
I love how we met, when you stop by to look for a friend in my class
The way you looked, your dress so tight
I loved our first time together, at the visitors lounge
I fell for you, holding me tight
I love your smile, and your full lips
When ours meet, heaven in a glimpse
I love your sweetness, how you make me first
You fill my heart, enough to burst
I love listening to naughty songs, with you by my side
Those long summer night calls, with never a goodbye
I love how you, are just like me
We belong together, in a house by the sea
I love the look, that you give with grace
Whenever I, wipe the hair from your face
I love you, more than I can say
Always had me wishing, for one more day
I love you, that will never change
If you left, I would derange
I love it when, your hair is a mess
The way you looked, your dress so tight
I loved our first time together, at the visitors lounge
I fell for you, holding me tight
I love your smile, and your full lips
When ours meet, heaven in a glimpse
I love your sweetness, how you make me first
You fill my heart, enough to burst
I love listening to naughty songs, with you by my side
Those long summer night calls, with never a goodbye
I love how you, are just like me
We belong together, in a house by the sea
I love the look, that you give with grace
Whenever I, wipe the hair from your face
I love you, more than I can say
Always had me wishing, for one more day
I love you, that will never change
If you left, I would derange
I love it when, your hair is a mess
I love it how, you put your head on my shoulders
I love it how, when we play tongue games
I love it how, when we play tongue games
I love it how, we wrap ourselves around each other
I love you, for everything you are
For the times we spent, together at school
I love you, for everything you are
For the times we spent, together at school
For the times we spent, chatting on skype
For the times we spent, chatting via text messages
For the times we spent, chatting on phone
I love you, because I know you’ll be here
When I go to sleep, to hold me secure
I love you, because I know you’ll be here
When I go to sleep, to hold me secure
To My Lovely Angel
Signs You’re Meant To Be
1. You tell him things you don’t tell anyone else. We don’t mean blurting something out after you’ve had too much merlot, but the desire to tell him intimate details about your life means you trust him—a major component of successful long-term love
2. You let him see you in moments of weakness. It’s easy to be happy with someone when you’re feeling good about life. But what about when you’re not doing so well? Do you want to see her when you’ve been denied a raise, or your cat died or you had a plain old bad day? She should be a comfort during tough times, not a burden.
3. You respect him. You don’t want to change the essence of who he is. There may be stuff that irritates you in everyday life—he insists on wearing his favorites, holey T-shirt, he eats sugar cereal for dinner, he still watches Saturday morning cartoons—but you like him, plain and simple.
4. You want him to meet your parents. You feel proud of him and you want to show him off—as opposed to feeling like you have to make excuses for him.
5. You can imagine a future together. You don’t have to practice writing your first name with his last name, but do you periodically let your mind wander to picture a life together? Is it amazing?
6. You’re not afraid to disagree with him. You know that even if you fight, he’ll listen to you and won’t brush you off. He takes you seriously, even when he thinks you’re wrong.
7. It’s OK to be quiet around her. You don’t feel like you have to fill the space between you with chatter or other interaction. Instead, you feel an easy comfort.
8. You feel like yourself around him. You don’t feel like you have to edit your thoughts; you’re not self-conscious or anxious.
8. You feel like yourself around him. You don’t feel like you have to edit your thoughts; you’re not self-conscious or anxious.
9. You need him the right amount. You long for him—but not too much. Some neediness is good but too much breeds discontent.
10. You don’t feel too jealous. You’re comfortable with him going out with his friends—even female friends. You let each other have your own lives and hobbies. Feeling Jealous? Could Be A Good Thing
11. You feel like she makes you a better person. She makes you feel smart, funny, attractive, creative—like the best version of yourself. You feel like she brings out and complements the best parts of you.
12. He just gets you. Sometimes it’s that easy. You feel like she understands some essential part of you that you can’t explain or articulate. It’s a warm, comfortable feeling—and one you should have with the person you marry.
Are you meant to be? Let us know in the comment box below
Manipulation Mosquito
Mosquito seizures,
elevation crescendo,
waffle patio,
rugged leisures.
-
Errand wheat,
smitten footing,
I'm not your trophy,
if grief is all you provide
then march your webs to
disappearance,
I'll be beautifully fine
once you're out of my greet.
-
Shed some more spills,
who manipulates who?
Sure I tell my story
but at least I have a pulse,
I can stand single and dance.
Strings of formula contact
the regiments of fleece,
all you do is smother the voice,
your own life is an avoidance,
you slide darkly on the grease.
-
I'm not wanting to be a victim,
you're planting a seed of turmoil,
you're consecrating the bud,
murder what you will,
I'm still the name of
admirable shudder,
my package of
delights you won't spoil.
It's around yourself where
the snake venom must coil,
measure up the deed of upset,
bring the pot of
ingredients to a boil.
-
Call me manipulative,
say I deceived you greatly,
tell the whole invitation,
call me what surpasses.
I don't have time for
your childish labels
nor your monkey wrongs.
Haven't I always said
just who I was going to be?
Day one to day now,
invention ballerina
twirling the discovery and
blocking further
disappointment songs.
-
Manipulation awesome,
applesauce the show,
to you I'm just a performance,
one entertain after brilliance,
none of my problems are
written in real concrete,
I'm just the person you're
warned to stay away from
but in the end your curiosity
will cause your interest to grow.
-
Empty Courtney
just lives all alone,
it's cozy in her head,
but she really
programs a dread.
-
Butterscotch cupcake,
sugar dreams, sailor drains,
vein swirled give me for the take.
-
Duty terminal,
bleeder swings,
firework pear,
live like a fountain sings.
-
Call me manipulative,
say I deceived you greatly,
tell the whole invitation,
call me what surpasses.
I don't have time for
your childish labels
nor your monkey wrongs.
Haven't I always said
just who I was going to be?
Day one to day now,
invention ballerina
twirling the discovery and
blocking further
disappointment songs.
-
My life is my
blood corpse,
revival grasses
collapse to wander,
my heart is my salvation,
my mind is my temple,
I'll honor the standards,
I know in my heart that who
I am isn't a dead creation.
-
Manipulators do reap what they sow
but when have I ever made the exit
before I communicated thoroughly?
-
From first encounter
you should've known
what you were grasping.
I have some baggage,
not of my volunteer.
To dismiss me because
I belong to my past is rude,
I treated you with tolerance,
where is yours to me in attitude?
-
When your fantasies all crumble
that's when you poster mourns,
share the responsibility
as to why that is,
your meloncholy droppings
kiss swollen treasures,
your air is burnt,
the sheets disposed of,
ribbon yahtze adorns.
-
I've never stabbed your back,
I had the courtesy to put a staple
on your front cover book.
Courtney's a danger to you,
I'm such a burden,
the bloated truck?
Originate my bedroom,
the winter coat I sew,
be angry with me,
but there's things right there
you just refuse yourself to know.
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