Flowers On The Grave

Little voices leave

A soft spoken word

with an important meaning

that often goes unheard.

Silent cries

in the middle of the night,

for words disregarded,

only to start a fight.

Tear drops fall

from a thousand faces

for the girl

that's left no traces.

Pictures on her casket,

flowers on the grave,

the memories of a girl,

no one cared to save.

Her mother is torn,

her father feels no pain.

Without her around,

he has so much more to gain.

He never wanted

a little girl anyway.

But her teachers never noticed,

and her mother wouldn't say.

Using various techniques,

she hid the bruises on her face.

The markings on her arms,

She covered in ribbons and lace.

Friendships didn't last

And her boyfriends never stayed.

She built a tower in her heart,

Slowly, the walls decayed.

But all of that doesn't matter,

He's ready for this strife,

She gave him what he wanted,

And he took her life.

Life Goes On

Sometimes you make A's, Ocassionaly B's,
The future holds the answer,
Just wait and see.
Life goes on.
Accomplishments, recognition,
You feel special and alive!
but, now the momnts ended,
You must continue to strive.
Life goes on.
Friends are special,
Some come and go,
Some stay forever,
But the lasting takes time to show.
Life goes on.
for every life that leaves this world,
amidst tears with their dying,
Somewhere else a child is born,
Joyously, kicking and crying.
Life goes on.
Elder loved ones leave us:
We hold their memories close to our heart,
Throughout our lives their lessons and love
will always be a part.
Life goes on.
As loved ones die, New babies come,
We love them just the same.
It's with pride we welcome them,
To carry on our names.
Life goes on.
What today may seem a tragedy,
Tomorrow might be brighter.
Let's consider it on an other day,
When are moods are brighter.
Life goes on.

Death Certificate

"Do you remember when we were best friends? When we'd share our every thought? Every smile? And every laugh? Oh, and did you remember when you broke my heart? Because I seem to remember that more than anything. I trusted you, I trusted you to take care of my heart.I trusted you not to take it and stomp on it.

I wished on every

Fallen eye lash,

I wished on

Every star,

But it seems

Like every time I try

I gain just one

More scar.

I can’t take your pity.

You don’t have

To forgive me

For my sins.

The only thing

I ask of you

Is can you please,

Just be my friend.

You are no better

Than me or them.

We are all the same.

But when your knife

Is in my back,

Is the only time

You’re content.

You shout harsh words,

But we’re the same.

You hurt,

Just like me.

And when you’re hurt,

You bleed.

I bleed for you.

You never knew.

You were caught up

In your own

little games,

and you wouldn’t

even listen

when I said,

“My soul died

That night.”

You wonder what

Happened.

Why can’t I speak?

Because all your

Words were hurtful,

And when I hurt

I bleed.

But you don’t

Understand,

The scars are

Making me weak.

I can’t take your pity.

You don’t have

To forgive me

For my sins.

The only thing

I ask of you

Is can you please,

Just be my friend.

I’m lying

In the darkness.

You’re hiding

From yourself.

If you were

My friend,

You never would

Have left me

On the shelf.

The tears I shed

Are for the ones

You’ve failed.

Their not only mine,

It’s them as well.

Your family.

Your friends.

And you.

I tried to help you

Break down the wall,

But every chance

You watched me fall.

I wished on every

Fallen eye lash,

I wished on

Every star,

But it seems

Like every time I try

I gain just one

More scar.

I’ll be waiting

In the darkest corner.

When you finally

Realize who you are.

While you are out there

Living your life

Just remember

My soul

Died that night.

Give it some time

Yours is on it’s way.

And as you’re

Slowly trying

To salvage the remains.

I’ll be waiting,

While I’m

Filling out your

Death certificate.

Skin & Bones

Hurry up get skinny. Do it fast,
Eat less run more, make it last.
Don’t ever stop, just keep on going,
Do everything you can to keep him from knowing.
If he finds out he’ll hate you, just like he hates her,
Things will never go back to the way they once were.
Keep on going until your body breaksdown,
Keep on going, until you’re no longer around.
Hide behind a lie, hide behind clothes,
Hide in a place noone ever goes.
Don’t worry, he wont notice. He wouldn’t even look.
All he’ll ever see is the cover of a book.
Just stand quiet, just stand still,
He doesn’t care and he never will.

.:. A Cradle for My Sleepless Soul .:.

In you, I have unearthed a cradle for my sleepless soul,
I've found you a temporary escape into my heart's parole!

With you, I float in an air of lightness and a hushed serenity,
I've found you a branch to hold onto a few steps from insanity!

Beside you, I feel as whole as a full moon on a summer's night,
I've found your beats a haven and in your rhythms I see the light!

As I hear you, I unfold, fold and unfold again, again and again,
I've found you to be my "happy pill", the lift and the crane!

As I live you, I am unplugged from the chaos inside my head,
I've found you to be the time when all thoughts to go to bed!

Sweet music: you are never the cause and always the cure,
The only true friend I have; always guiding me to the way to endure...

Can't You See That I Love You

Beat up and bruised by my own selfish desires,
I can say I love you,
I can go out on a wire.
But my courage halts,
and I trip up my words.
I know that this has got to be my fault.
But it's no one's fault but yours.
You made me love you,
and you caught my heart with lures.
Now I'm in my own trap,
And there is no question why.
I'm stuck with my words and what they have meant,
and you're about to say good-bye.
I grab your arm as you're turning away,
and you question me.
I shudder under your gaze,
and you say I'm weird.
"Can't you see I love you," I whisper,
But I wasn't heard.
I let go of your arm and sadly walk away,
all the while hoping you would see me.
Maybe you will notice me and my love for you one day.

Trapped

In my own mind, I wake up trapped
Just like I did when I fell asleep
The world is a movie that I watch while wrapped
In endless thoughts that scream and weep
Like a leafless tree I stand tall yet clueless
Wondering what the next step should be
Every solution I produce turns out to be useless
And every one around me is too blind to see
In my own heart, there are a billion questions
About love, hope, family, life and chances
I try hard to answer it back with empty suggestions
Avoiding its doubtful and attacking glances
Like a headless bird I fly, with no direction
Aiming towards something I don't even know
Needing more than warmth; purer protection
Like a little girl, lost in the big white snow
Stuck in limbo, been there for years now
Every shore I reach seems like a trap
To life's unfunny tricks I give a fat bow
While I count every disappointment and mishap

.:. The Illusion of Happiness .:.

On an autumn's morning, I get up and breathe in,
Lying to myself that the breaths which follow will be pure...
I push a smile on a tired face with no roots from within,
Another pre-broken promise to my soul that this pain I can endure!

On an autumn's morning, I carry a book and read,
Lying to myself that the words I read will elevate my misery...
I push away a negative thought yet a 100 others breed,
Another desperate attempt to herd away the painful imagery!

On an autumn's morning, I try to make sense of it all,
Lying to myself that the sense might make sense to me...
I push away regret and it comes bouncing back like a ball,
Another fake hope that it could, maybe, hopefully, set me free!

On an autumn's morning, I finally realize my illusions:
Things will never change; accept them the way they are...
I push away the pretenses and the million confusions:
Hope is fake, attempts are desperate and happiness is far!

"Peek into"...EARTH'S FUTURE..

Earth- "Dramatic changes will soon be taking place;
Not only for me, but the entire human race.
I see old people getting younger everyday;
and the newspapers have only nice things to say!

"People are coming back, like Noah and Able;
but without wheelchairs and canes, they walk very stable.
Some are throwing their glasses and hearing aids away!
And look! I see a man tossing his toupee!

"Hospitals and graves are gone from the land;
No oil or dead fish in the ocean sand.
I see nothing but beauty all over the place;
There's no more trash, not even a trace!

"No sound of machine guns, no anguish of war;
No dread of someone missing, that knock on the door.
Instead I see peace, as people walk around;
All boarders are open, there's no battleground.

"There's plenty of food, so much to go around;
Everyone's growing fruit on their own piece of ground.
The variety and taste is overwhelming, and what's more...
they say it's way better than canned food from the store!

"The zoos have opened their gates, you no longer pay admission;
to see the animals now, there's been a changed condition.
I see a teenager playing with a lion, it's really quite a sight,
there's no fear of the animals anytime, day or night!

"There's no more concern about global warming;
Everything's in balance, a total transforming!
Everyone still enjoys Winter, Spring, Summer and fall;
There's just not the extremes, that's all!

"These changes are coming soon, I promise it won't be long;
Jehovah will undo the damage of everything that's gone wrong.
This is the future that I foresee;
A promise by God, his guarantee...

We'll be here forever... earth, man and sea!!!

Suicide Note

I Tried To Fight The Pain
But I Lost That War
I Tried To Remain Sane
But I Couldnt Stand Anymore
I Tried To Run Away
And Hide All The Scars
But That Didnt Work
Now I Sit And Gaze The Stars
I Tried To Find A Solution
But My Brain Couldnt Manage
It Seems Life Has Killed Me
And Did Alot Of Damage
I Cant Pretend That Im Alright
It Just Wont Work
And Everytime I Try To
It Gives Me A Erk
Life Is Hard And Painful
It Hurts Really Bad
I Cant Help Butthink
That Iv Gone Mad
This Knife In My Hand
Is Taking Over My Thoughts
Its Becoming A Soldier
In The War I Once Faught
As I Say Goodbye
And Tears Roll Down My Face
I Want You To Remember
That I Once Took Place...

You

I Loved You
I Cared For You
I Adored You
I Cherrished You
I Gave You My All
And Alls You Did Was Let Me Fall
You Lead Me On To This Lie
You Let Me Believe You Tried
You Were The Cause Of My Cry
And Now I Say Goodbye
I Cant See You
I Dont Know You
I Only Have A Memory
Full Of All The Things You Do
I Remember Ur Scream
I Remember Ur Threats
I Remember Ur Lies
And I Now Have Regrets
Its A Good Thing I Let You Go
No Tellin What You Couldve Done
Dont Worry My Darling
This Game Has Just Begun...

A Day In The Life Of A Teenage Girl

Pressure to be perfect, the need to be cool
Bad grades & dress codes, skanks and tools
Makeup & perfume, Abercrombie & Fitch
Your whole week being ruined; by some stupid b●tch
Boys that we love who never look our way
Best friends & iPods that get us through the day
Drama, backstabbing, rumors and lies
Moments when you fall apart and just want to cry
Those desperate days when nothing goes right
Feeling alone on sleepless nights
Finding our way through this mixed up world,
A day in the life
Of a teenage girl

White Flag

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The dirt under my fingernails
have stained out shameless flag.
Throughout the whole day,
it remained clean,
soft,
prideful.
But the moment we grasped upon it,
we realized that our past lust and passion
was reckless.
And now
we shall pay for our lack
of strength,
by waving that
shame-full white flag in the wind.
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