Broken Dreams

I took a step into the dark cold night
I looked up to see there were no stars to wish on in sight,
Oh but what I saw filled be with dread
Broken wishes of those whose hope was dead
Broken wishes floated high above me
I realized they were silently searching for the key
If found, this key would release my hope and allow it to go away
In fear my mind screamed yet left me no words to say
Then I realized that the key was my fear
I call for my hope but my hope is not here
I wanted to run and never look back
But, with no hope in my heart my dreams began to crack
"My dreams will not break!" I screamed out loud
"My dreams will not break for they are much too proud!"
But my pride bgan to dissolve along with my dream
I quickly glanced up but found no wishes I had not seen
Where is my dream? I wonered, I wish for a sign
I glanced up once more and found a new broken dream, this dream was mine

The Cold

The snow falls
Heavy on the ground
Leaving me lost,
And never to be found
I'm watching it drift
I'm hearing it whisper
I'v been walking far too long
And my feet have begun to blister
They left me behind
And now I'm on my own
I have to find
My way back home
I was screaming
And begging
I didn't wanna be lost
But I'm unwanted
And now I pay the cost
Frostbite takes its toll
My wounds cry for death
And so does my soul
How could they do this
I've been left for dead
But there is still so much more
Going on in my head
So, now I'll sit here
I'll cry my last few tears
If I'm scared of death,
Then bring on all my fears
No use trudging
Through all this snow
When my fate is set
And I already know
I know they wanted this to happen
They wanted me gone
This is what they wanted
For so long
So, this snowy mountian
Was just a set-up
To help me lose my way
And now I'm freezing cold
And there's nothing left to say

I'm Gone

My heart is black and cold
these fake smiles are getting quite old
the sweet taste in my mouth has been soured
my soul is slowly being devoured
my eyes are no longer glowing
my heart beat is quickly slowing
help me regain my old smile
don't let my thoughts be so vile
i'll take your hand
just please understand
that only you can save me
for this is my only plea
wipe away all of my dried tears
also any of my make up smears
take my blood-drenched knife
you may have just saved my life
now time to face the ugly truth
I pulled the trigger
and cut with great vigor
blood is now everywhere
you don't even seem to care
finally everything went black
I'm never going to come back
now that i am gone
I hope everyone had their fun

Disguise

Look past this girl
Look past my mask
I'm not who you think I am
You pass me in the halls
You call me a freak
You think my life is perfect
And I'm just putting on an act
Yeah sure, I do put on an act
But not the kind you think
You think I want attention
But I want to be invisible
Just look past my sad eyes
You call me fake
But I'll show you the list of my life
Rape
Abuse
Self-harm
Abandonment
That's just the begging
So, yes i wear a disguise
But not to get sympathy
I wear it so you won't know the truth
How messed up i really am
How much I've been through
You think I'm another loser
Who just has emotional problems
But I am so much more

I'm Ahead

Popping pills in the morning,
Popping pills at night.
Cutting deep into my skin,
holding my blade tight.
Dressed up to look my best,
When I actually looked my worst.
I thought all this alcohol
would refresh my troublesome thirst.
I wanted kids when I was older,
I wanted good news to tell.
But Who Tells their children,
that they wanted to go to hell?
I had a lot of problems.
sexually abused and bashed.
Both my arms, wrists, and legs,
Had been both bruised and gashed.
I thought of myself,
As a strong Girl.
I wasn't strong at all..
This is what made my toes curl.
I had decided to stop,
And get my life on track.
Because I realized the life I wasted
I was never getting back.
So I stopped the hurting,
For once it was pretty easy.
I stopped looking like an easy target,
and I stopped dressing sleazy.
I'm a better person now.
And I'm turning 16.
I cant believe how young I was,
and how I was so keen.
All the drugs and the alcohol,
the cutting and pain.
Have all disappeared,
now I'm one step ahead in this game.

I mISS yOU

I sit out in the cold, it's times like this,
When I look back on the things that I miss,
The old times, the days gone way by,
The bittersweet memories end up making me cry.
I miss your smile, your laugh and wave,
To hear your voice again is the only thing I crave,
To look in those blue eyes and know all is well,
But now I'm alone again, fighting against my hell.
I remember the days where you would joke with me,
You'd read my poetry, and a support you'd be,
You've given me faith in this world once again,
I was at peace with it all, with you, until then,
The days flew by, and then came the end,
I honestly miss you more than anyone, my best friend.
I think of you everyday, and it hurts me so,
Because I haven't seen you for so long, you know.
This poem's for you, though I want everyone to know,
Because I actually want to put my feelings on show,
Though there may not be many views on this,
You are the one I truely miss.

Its a Long Story

Why is it me
What have I done
The lonely outcast,
That's who I have become
Sometimes I think it's better
Then I can't get hurt
But then I think about it
And the pain gets worse and worse
Not one friend at school
Nor out
In myself, I have so much doubt
Why am I so different
Am I really that insane
Or do you just find pleasure
In making me go through pain
I used to think I had a friend
But she's got friends of her own
Now there's no one
To help guide me home
But maybe home is not the place to be
I have scars from that place
But I won't let anyone see
Right now, I know I'm alone
Online friends just aren't the same
And to think that their the only friends I have,
That turns my last bit of pride, into full blown shame
Last year, I had one last person
But she's got other followers this year
And now my myself and my actions,
I fear
Maybe if I pretend
Wear a skirt for a day or two
Maybe they'll give me compliments
To make up for all the torture they've put me through
But I'm gonna be me
I already lie enough
And so far,
My life has been awfully rough
So, it's simple and plain,
I'm gonna try once more
I'm gonna tighten the noose
And walk through Hell's door
No one will miss me
Not my mom
Not my dad
Nor any classmates
Not one will even be sad

Be With Me

Come into my arms, for another warm embrace,
Come here and sit next to me, there's plenty of space,
Don't feel left alone, you're worth more than a mile,
All I want to do is to see your beautiful smile.
You'll never be alone, I'll always be here,
Never be afraid, because I'll always be near,
I'll be your beacon, I'll be your hope,
I'll take off some of the weight when you can't cope,
Never feel scared, because I'll fight them all away,
The bullies won't be there to frighten you another day,
Though I can't stop all the pain, I can stem the flow,
I can give you those five minutes that you need before the show.
Plaster your face, put on that charade,
I'll cover for you while you prepare the facade,
Honestly I'd do this for you, without a moment's hesitation,
But would you do the same for me? I want a conformation.
Hang in there beautiful people, keep the smile on your face,
Pack away the bad memories, lock them in a case,
I'd paint you a rainbow in the sky, if I were able to,
You and me together, there's nothing we can't do.

"Someone Like You"

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, "
Yeah

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Yeah

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Yeah

"Don't You Remember"

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye,
Not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any scene,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hoped that you'd find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?

Forever and Always

It's raining outside;
So wet and cold.
Cover me, my love,
And please
Don't loosen your hold.
~~~
It's sunny outside;
So warm and bright.
Run with me, my love,
Through the fields until night.
~~~
It's storming outside;
So fierce and wild.
Hide with me, my love,
And protect me
Like you would a child.
~~~
It's snowing outside;
So beautiful and clean.
Lie down with me, my love,
In the snow so serene.
~~~
It's night outside;
So quiet and dark.
Kiss me, my love,
And sleep with me
'Til morning's bright spark.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I see nothing outside;
I'm so scared and alone.
Where are you, my love,
Why is your presence not shown?
~~~
I hear your voice call my name
And feel a distant bright light.
Though I cannot move nor see,
I cry out for you
With all my might.
~~~
Your voice fades away
And the light goes out.
I am leaving, my love,
But I continue to shout.
~~~
My voice has left me
And as I'm letting go,
I feel you embrace me
And hear you say,
"I told you so,"

Something About You

I stand here on the shores of madness
Looking across the sea of sadness
Wondering what could have gone wrong
And through the darkness I see
A weak light trying to break through the black horizon
Sailing across the sea that is so thick
To a point that a man could walk on
A candle on a boat...
A boat made out of paper
A paper with your name and mine
With a heart as a frame
A heart that I once drew
After I looked into your eyes
Those eyes that once gave me strength
The strength that got you away
I wish I could find a way to draw your route back to my arms
My arms that were your house
A house that I wish we could built together
Together is what I wanted for us
Us as we're sitting together holding on one another
Another is what i am to you now
Now is the present that I suffer in
In my heart you will always live my love
Love is what I will always have for you
..... YOU .....
You are the most precious thing...god ever made

I Am A Dreamer

In my mind I like to live
And in my thoughts I thrive.
I can be whatever, whoever.
It's when I'm most alive.
I believe in fairy tales
And I believe in love.
I believe in myths and legends
And everything above.
I put it all together
And create a world, my own.
To me, it all seems so new
But it feels I've always known.
I like to think, I like to write,
And I enjoy reading books.
Peer closer at your imagination
Because nothing is as it looks.

A Lonely Broken Heart

There's no way to hide it, darling.
I can see you within.
Deep down, you're broken inside.
Hiding many secrets from the world.
You aren't what you once where.
Not the girl I used to know.
That fake smile; it doesn't prove a thing.
You changed into something new.
A clone, a poser, it's what you are.
Trying to fit in with what you aren't.
Truthfully, I'm happy your group left you behind.
Perhaps it will teach you a lesson.
You have nothing now, you see, they never treated you right.
They never cared.
I always was aware.
I tried to warn you numerous times.
You didn't listen to my words.
You chose them over me.
Popularity over one who would give you more love and warmth than anyone ever could.
You're attempting to come crawling back to me, you seek my attention, or do you?
Maybe you're just lonely, left behind.
You lack friendship.
You know you have no best friend.
You have many people in your life, yet you feel so alone.
You feel dead inside.
Broken, sorry, lonely.
You have no one to share your deepest, darkest secrets with.
You keep it in.
You try to be apart of the popularity.
You try to believe you're the best thing that ever walked the earth.
Deep down, you know you aren't.
You long for a best friend.
I could've been that.
Yet you betrayed me, and gave me up for everything else.
Other people, far more better than I could ever be.
One thing they couldn't beat me in; love.
I could've given you so much more.
You threw that oppurtunity away.
One day, you'll regret it. You'll regret every second of it.
Maybe today is that day.

Remember

I'm looking back on my childhood,
Back at my blurred memories
And I focus on one in particular,
One that is slowly starting to cease:
I am four, maybe five,
And I am waking from my sleep.
I slowly crawl out of my bed
And try not to make a peep.
As I tip toe down the hallway
And pass by His lair,
I hear Him say,
"Come snuggle with me,"
To my dreadful despair.
Trying to talk my way out of it,
I say, "But I don't want to,"
But by the look on His face,
I know I'm gonna have to.
So I shuffle to His bed
And crawl disgustedly under the covers.
As He binds me tight
With His strong, imprisoning arms,
His booze-hinted breath
Reminds me
To let my consciousness hover
For my 5 year old self
Knows what comes next
But my 14 year old self
Only knows the effects:
My heart has been hardened
With frozen distrust
And my body flinches
Every time it is touched.
I try hard to remember
What happened that morning
But something keeps blocking me
And it feels like a warning.
Though I have nothing to be warned about
For He is no longer in my life
So I wonder why remembering
Is such a strife.
I want to press onward
In my probing of my memory
But I am too tired from the effort
So maybe it'll all come back to me.
Maybe, just maybe.

Someone Who Cares

It’s so terrible

Everyone’s against you

You need a miracle

Or else you’ll never make it through

It’s so horrible

Why do I let you stay?

Maybe I’m your miracle

Or maybe you should go away

//You’re always feeling sorry for yourself

I try to talk to you but it never helps

There’s always something to complain about

Why do I hang around?

I’ve got better things to do

Than sit around and listen to you

Complain about how life’s not fair

Save it for someone who cares//

It’s so confusing

You can’t make up your mind

It’s constantly changing

You never decide

It’s so amusing

You think no one’s got it worse than you

But maybe did you think

You should try looking from a different view

//Chorus//

Stop feeling sorry for yourself

You’ve got nothing worse than anyone else

//Chorus//

You

You are friendly, kind, and caring
sensitive, loyal, and understanding,
humorous, fun, secure, and true
always there... yeah that's you.

Special, accepting, exciting, wise
truthful, helpful, with honest brown eyes
confining, forgiving, cheerful and bright
yes that you...not one bit of spite.

your one of a kind, diff rent from others
generous, charming, but not one that smothers
optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game
but not just another... in the long chain

appreciative, warm, precious like gold
our friendship wont tarnish or never grow
old.
you'll always be there, i know that's true
I'll always be here; always for you.

Forget Him

I'll forget his name,
Forget his face,
Forget his touch,
His warm embrace.
I'll forget the love
I thought I knew,
And remember he has
Someone new.
I'll forget him when
They play our song,
And remember when I'd cry
All night long.
I'll forget how close
We used to be,
And remember he chose
To leave me.
I'll forget how I
Memorized his walk,
Forget how long
We used to talk.
I'll forget the things
He used to say,
And remember he chose
Not to stay.
I'll forget his laugh,
Forget his grin,
Forget how his smile
Would make me
Melt within.
I'll forget the way
He'd hold me tight,
And remember he's dreaming
Of her tonight.
I'll forget the time
That went so fast,
Forget the love
That wouldn't last.
I'll forget he said
He'd leave me never,
And remember he is
Gone forever...
I'm sure I'll learn
To forget all this
But the one thing
I'll always remember
Is I really wanted him
To be my first kiss...

Where did I go wrong?

Where did I go wrong?

Was I too closed up and scared?

I assumed our friendship was strong

And that is was something special we shared

I know I sound dramatic

Depressed, alone.

Maybe even pathetic

But was I so wrong?

I lost you now

Years of friendship down the drain

It hurts so much to know

That never again we will dance together in the rain

We had days of laughter and years of fun

How can you say that you are done?

Done with me,

Done with all that you see

I never knew I was that bad

Since when do I only make you mad?

Maybe I was wrong

Maybe this was my fault

Maybe I should have known

Maybe, maybe, you are right

I guess it is impossible to remain friends with someone like me

When I am really as selfish and anti-social as you say me to be

But I have a little something to say too:

I know for sure, that I’m going to miss you

Beautiful Rain

As I watched the pouring rain
The sun shined on every drop
Just admiring the beauty
of one drop.

I never felt the rain on my skin
I could only see it coming down
From the clouds hanging
In the blue sky

It seemed as if... the rain
Is coming from nothing
But still washing
Our world.

As the rain dropped on my notes
It blurred away all of my thoughts
The only thing that swirled in my mind
was...

How beautiful it was
To feel safe under the water drops...

A Black Woman, Nothing Else

There used to be a time when
I was ashamed of my skin.
I received tormenting jokes
from all of my friends.

Of course it wasn't done
to make me feel this way
But being black gave me much dismay.

"African, charcoal, Black Baby",
I would hear
But no one even noticed or knew
That I had silent tears.

Those names became nicknames and
I'd hear them everyday at school
‘Cause when I was young and growing up
I'd play by my peers rules.


One day when I was still young
My father left us all
And married a white woman
Who beckoned his every call.

I was really ashamed of my skin then,
I thought it was very bad,
I thought the white woman had something
Which I could never have.

But one day when I was still young
I met a black lady darker than I was,
She cherished and boasted that her
Color was a gift from above.

She told me that I was beautiful -
Something no one had ever done.
She said, "your skin is
So black and smooth-
Which shows the perfecting of the sun".

She said, "To match the pretty black skin
Your teeth are white as snow
And I'm sure that you will show them
Everywhere that you go".

Everyday she would tell me this
And her words began to spread.
They came from other people
I never even met.

The words of my friends changed to,
"Let me feel your face

And let me see you grin"-
For sister, you are beautiful-
Be proud of the color of your skin.

Now, I'm not ashamed of my skin
Though obstacles it may bring.
I proclaim to the world that I am
A Black Woman, the element of spring.

I blossom with happiness
And pride within myself
For I am A Black Woman
And I wish to be nothing else.

The End

I thought I couldn't survive another day after it ended, but i did, for you.
and i thrived on hope and the happy memories, those could always make me smile.
and then you took those memories away and spoiled them all,
mutilating and deforming them with all your lies.
and when the memories left, so did my hope.
now I'm left with nothing, and i cant survive another single day.
goodbye. remember ill always love you.

Proof Heart

The days filled with longing, for you ever more
but you left me behind in one second, to be drowned in dust.
I will never understand..
I loved you, cared for you,
would break my soul in half for you,
yet you left me here to rust.
I deny the emotions rushing like a storm,
even if I died tomorrow you'd think nothing of it and walk to another girl or boy...
I know how you work..
you'll leave every memory we had..
glance into the mask I show..
but things are different, I refuse to be your toy..

Someone I'm Not

Some people say to be like them,
But being unique is good,
It's different
People say different is bad,
Horrible
Not to exist
So are they saying,
That I'M not supposed to exist?
People tell me to be, special
But I can't be special when I'm being forced
I'm being told to be someone I'm not
Sure, I may not be pretty, smart, or athletic
Or preppy, popular, and rich
But beauty doesn't come from money, or looks
It counts from what is inside
From being yourself,
And not someone you're not

The Venom of the mind...

Hold my hand
Trust in me
Walk in sand
You will see

Ray of light
Head to toe
See the bright
There we'll go

Afraid not
I am here
Reach the lot
You're a dear

I am bad
You are good
Don't be sad
There's no mood

I lure you
You held it
What to do?
Just feel it

No such fate
It's you fault
No more date
Eat the salt

Suffer here
Feel the pain
You came here
You will drain

Bold Beauty

His innocent ways,
With every words he says.
Darkening eyes,
That hypnotize my mind.

The sly smile that he wears,
Makes it hard not to stare.
Thoughts that I wish would disappear,
From his mind as he faces a mirror.
Quickly turning away,
After one look he sighs in dismay.

If only you would see,
What I see when you look at me.
Your beauty with in and out,
Shown amongst you without a doubt.

Bold and Beauty.
No denying,
What I see.

Your heart, your soul
Extra ordinary like no other fool.
No one can compare.

Your voice whispers,
Causing me to smile.
Washing away my fear and anger,
With one touch of your hand.

His vibrant actions,
Cause my unforgettable attraction.
I love you dear.

A second chance,
To restart what unfolded.
By your side,
Never wanting to leave.
My love.

Bold and Beauty mixed with in.
If only you would see what I see,
When I look at you.

Your sly smile.
Darkening eyes.
Vibrant moves.
Unforgettable words.
You are Extra ordinary.

Light

Here I lay
Shrouded in cold, ever lasting darkness
No past...
No Present...
No future....
But out of no where
A ray of light appears, washing away the darkness
And in that light
There's an angel
Smiling as she extends her hand
Pulling me into her warm embrace
She tells me that there's nothing to fear
Slowly she takes me into the light, washing away all of my fears and my pain
"Don't let go" I whisper, feeling the light touch my heart
But as soon as it came, it was gone
As the darkness reappears, I see a light glowing in my chest
Then I hear her voice...
Calling softly from the fearsome dark
"I won't let you go"

Temptation

Lays their on the floor with tears in her eyes.
What happened to her a thousand reasons to smile?
Completely shattered inside.
With not knowing whether to continue or not.
Wears a smile so big no one can see through to see her pain.
So tempted to go back to her old friend .
Who's been hidden in a box for no one to find.
Ready to be visited one more time.
So lost in this world feel so alone.

I'm a boy, and i like boys

I'm a boy
And i like eyeliner
Deal with it,
It's whoI am
I'm a boy
And i like Lady gaga
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And I like nailpolish
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like hello kitty
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like glitter
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like poetry
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like chic flicks
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like acting
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like boys
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And I am GAY
Accept it,
Because I'm never changing

You and I

A little more time and you will see
It is meant to be, You and me
Time is a wonder, A thought to ponder
How long will I wait, For you to take
our hands held,Arms wrapped around
Our two feet firm on the ground
No one will touch us, Tell us were wrong
Cause whenever we're together its a song
One of love, and people together
For its you and me forever
Only time will tell, Take me from this hell
Give me your heart, And mix it with mine
Click Clock is the sound that it makes
With you next to me I will always wake
Up close next to you face to face
Together both our hearts will race
Don't play this game that they play with myhead
Because surelly that'll be the reason to be dead
The clock on the wall keeps on turning
Wanting you in my arms to stop from hurting
I'll wait right here until your ready
We can take it slow and steady
So let me know what you want
i lay right here till its thought
My six last words I give to you
I want you more and more
So before you leave out that door
Let me know its for sure

Her suicide

This racket I hear in the back of my head
I hear rambling, from the dead
The love you once showed, now blown
This is how it needs to be known
Her tears, Made of crystal
The mind gone by a pistol
One last breathe to let loose
The knot tied in a noose
Her two hands on her chest
While they lie her down to rest
Everyone looks and crys real hard
A memorial in the yard
A girl who barely knew the world
She thought it was all a chore
When all the boys called her a whore
She knew she didn't want it no more
Shes dead and gone and they now care
Her heart is gone without dispare
With friends and family all around
They all look down at the ground
Now three years and your still gone
At this grave your name in stone
You were to young to have left this life
You ended it all by the knife

What To Say When Your Boyfriend Breaks Up With You (applicable to guys and girls)

• I think it’s probably for the best. I didn’t want to hurt your feelings, but I realised a while ago that I see you as more of a brother figure.
• That's alright, because I love you BUT I'm not in love with you.
• I had a feeling your heart wasn’t in it anymore, because there didn’t seem to be any passion there.
• I think I’ve been guilty of romanticizing the whole thing. You’re not really everything I thought you’d be.
• That's okay, I know I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable!
• If you're going to hurt me, do it quickly... Because I'm not spending any more time crying over someone who's not going to stick around.
• Thanks - because I fell out of love with you ages ago and just didn't know how to tell you.
• Oh, that's a relief because I've fallen in love with someone else.
• OK, no hard feelings - So is it OK if I date your best friend/boss/brother/father?
• OK, let's bury this relationship and be done with it.
• I want to break up too, because I couldn't stand another day being around you.
• I guess you don’t realize how much you care about someone until they don’t care about you.
• Oh. Poor me!
• Yeah well i was getting kind of bored dating you.
• Well we were going to split over religious differences sooner or later anyway, what with you thinking you're God and me disagreeing...
• Well, all I can say is thankyou for being the one to show me what kind of guy I don't want to be with.
• Gosh you must have been reading my mind - I've wanted out of this crappy relationship with you for weeks now!
• Hmmm. I'm just wondering what I was doing when you decided you didn't want me any more!
• I want to thank you for giving me the worst day of my life.
• Oh thank goodness - now I don't have to pretend I've been happy in our relationship!
• If one day I actually start to matter, let me know.
• Well, my big mistake wasn't falling for you. It was being foolish enough to think you fell for me too.

Remember the Time

Let the sands of time flow by...
Let this life fade away...
Just remember yesterday...
Remember how the war ended...
Remember how time stopped...
Remember the time when we thought we could never die...
Remember the time when we thought we could fly...
Let the sands of time claim another night...
Let this life break away..
Just remember yesterday...
Remember how we shared a dance...
Remember how you gave me a chance...
Remember the time they broke your heart...
Remember the time I found you in the dark...
I wish to mend your heart...
Let the sands of time pass by my life....
Let me fade away...
Only to bring you another day...
Forget yesterday....

Depression

Depression is the color grey on a dull school day
It sounds like a child's cry
and it tastes like a bitter grapefruit
It smells like death in a graveyard
It looks like a hospital
I hope you never catch it's sick
It feels like a rough board
Depression is the color black with no expression
It sounds like silence on a boring day
It tastes like a sour lemon
It smells like a swamp
It looks like people in pain
It makes me feel like someone is
poking me with needles
Depression is the color red in somenone's eyes
after they cry
It sounds like a heart moniter reaching it's last beeps
It taste like a cold piece of ice; tasteless,
it smells like onions
it looks like a blind human beingIt feels like something stinging me

My Last Love Letter

I've made my decision;
I'm not changing my mind.
I'm saying goodbye
To the life I must leave behind.
But I have a task to do
Before I go;
I must write I letter
To my used to be paramour.
You see, I loved him
And I now love him even more
But I made a mistake
In which his heart
I unintentionally tore.
And once I realized
I was a complete fool for doing so,
He found another lover
And I was then engulfed
With agonizing sorrow.
I tried to hide my pain
And put on a smile
Whenever they walk by.
But as soon as I'm alone,
I crawl up into a ball
And spontaneously cry.
I cannot keep this up any longer
So in the letter below
I will write to my former lover
And explain to him
Why I must go:
"By the time you read this
I would already be gone.
But I just want to let you know
What I've been holding in
For so long.
I miss your
Deep blue eyes
Staring passionately into mine.
I miss your
Warm gentle hands;
The feeling I'd get
When yours and mine entwined.
I miss your
Charming sense of humor;
How it always
Brightened up my day.
I even miss your lips;
Though we never kissed,
You always knew
What to say.
I miss your protective arms;
How I felt when they embraced me.
And most of all,
I miss your love;
I can't believe you fell away
So easily.
As I wrap up this letter
With tears falling down my cheeks,
I'll swallow the pill
And finally get to rest
In peace."
I've made my decision;
It's too late to change my mind.
I've said goodbye
To the life I left behind.

Because of You

I wonder if you're proud.
Or if you even know.
You're the reason I let go,
And now I'm not afraid to say it out loud.
You ruined my view on love.
You ruined my view on men.
Now because of you I'll never trust again.
Deep inside is where my heart is shoved.
Now because of you,
I'll never risk it all.
So now it's impossible for me to fall.
Something I was getting used to.
Because of you I don't use my heart.
I ever hardly think.
I wont even blush at a wink.
Thanks for tearing me completely apart.
Because of you I'm stronger.
Because of you I live in fear.
Because of you I bring no one near.
Because of you I'm weaker.

Here Lies The Girl

Here lies the girl
With a broken heart;
The girl who unknowingly
Tore herself apart.
Here lies the girl
With the tear stained eyes;
The girl who fell in love
Which wasn't very wise.
Here lies the girl
With the scarred up skin
For carving up her frail body
Was the only way of controlling
The torture brewing within.
Here lies the girl
With nothing but skin and bone
For her appetite she lost
Because she felt so alone.
Here lies the girl
Who used to be strong.
But the pain made her weak
So she didn't last long.
Here lies the girl
Who tried to get help
But what was supposed to be a cry
Came out as a weak yelp.
Here lies the girl
Who loved him so.
But he stopped loving her
So she had to go.
Here lies the girl
And gripped tightly in her hand
Is a simple piece of paper
That reads her final demand.
It is directed to her love
And using purposefully 2 vowels
Are the words written in blood,
"Happy now?"

Under the net of our kisses

Drunk as drunk on turpentine
From your open kisses,
Your wet body wedged
Between my wet body and the strake
Of our boat that is made of flowers,
Feasted, we guide it - our fingers
Like tallows adorned with yellow metal -
Over the sky's hot rim,
The day's last breath in our sails.

Pinned by the sun between solstice
And equinox, drowsy and tangled together
We drifted for months and woke
With the bitter taste of land on our lips,
Eyelids all sticky, and we longed for lime
And the sound of a rope
Lowering a bucket down its well. Then,
We came by night to the Fortunate Isles,
And lay like fish
Under the net of our kisses.

Pablo Neruda

One

The mosquito is so small

it takes almost nothing to ruin it.

Each leaf, the same.

And the black ant, hurrying.

So many lives, so many fortunes!

Every morning, I walk softly and with forward glances

down to the ponds and through the pinewoods.

Mushrooms, even, have but a brief hour

before the slug creeps to the feast,

before the pine needles hustle down

under the bundles of harsh, beneficent rain.

How many, how many, how many

make up a world!

And then I think of that old idea: the singular

and the eternal.

One cup, in which everything is swirled

back to the color of the sea and sky.

Imagine it!

A shining cup, surely!

In the moment in which there is no wind

over your shoulder,

you stare down into it,

and there you are,

your own darling face, your own eyes.

And then the wind, not thinking of you, just passes by,

touching the ant, the mosquito, the leaf,

and you know what else!

How blue is the sea, how blue is the sky,

how blue and tiny and redeemable everything is, even you,

even your eyes, even your imagination.

Mary Olive

Parting Word

As for me

I have no mind

to lose anymore, I am through

with all that -

the sky is my mind

today.(And

it always is

and always was

today.) Blue,

her color

sorrowing over us ...

Does it flow out of or into us, seeing?

Unseen ray of perception the face beams

at things, or

face on which things shine!

I am so glad

that I no longer know,

no longer

care.

And one more thing:

the future?

Never

been there.

Franz Wright

How Could You?

How could you turn your back on me when I screamed your name so loud?
How could you let me fall away from you, did you get too proud?
How could you watch as I died a gruesome death and broke apart?
How could you walk away from me, or were you never really there to start?

How could you be so cruel to me when all I ever tried to do was fit in?
How could you be so hypocritical when I spoke my secrets from deep within?
How could you have said those things and pretended that they were true?
How could you have meant them all-I don't understand what you're trying to do.

How could you pull the floor from beneath me when I just learned to stand?
Please, could you just explain this to me, Because I don't understand..
How could you play this game of pretend and play the part of a friend?
How could you be so thoughtless, how could you want this all to end?

How could you look me in the eye and say the cruelest of words?
How could you say you listened to me when you never really heard?
How could you stick this knife in my chest, then twist it where you wanted it to go?
Please answer me all these questions, I really need to know

How could you have done things things and live with no regret?
How could you not remember what you said, how could you forget?
How could you say you'd do it, and then never really follow through
But really, I just have one question to ask ... I just want to know, How could you??

Just Friends

Sometimes I wonder if you know
Exactly how I feel
Our love is not romantic
But still is very real

We’ve held each other and cried out loud
And shared a kiss or two
But every time you walk away
I lose respect for you

You come to me when you feel bad
And everything goes wrong
Always expecting happiness
And to hear a cheery song

I sympathize and pull you close
And try to ease your pains
When the sun comes back, you are gone
‘Til the next time that it rains

I’ll always be here when you hurt
I know you know I’ll stay
But I’m not sure you’d miss me
If I ever went away

Friends in deed are a very rare find
Not too many stick it out
Through the good times and bad
Giving no cause to doubt

So don’t take that friend for granted
Tomorrow you may be alone
With no one around to help you
And pain like you’ve never known

I have a best friend...

I have a best friend...
In the sandbox we used to play,
We grew up with eachother,
but things ended up this way

I began to meet some new friends,
they all seemed pretty nice,
You told me they were the wrong crew,
But I didn't take your advice

I started smoking and drinking,
sneaking out and skipping school,
I never returned your phonecalls
because I was just too cool

I never told you the truth,
I just had to lie,
You told me I needed help
And all I could say was why?

I went to a party that night,
And I got so messed up I couldn't talk,
I tried to cross the street,
but I could barely walk

I heard a loud engine,
and I saw a bright light,
I then felt a great shove,
and I looked to my right

You'd been hit by a Semi,
With all the blood I could see,
You just pushed me out of the way
And that's how it had to be

A tear rolled down my face,
I could tell that you were dead,
I hugged your lifeless body
and wished it was me instead

I've been sober for 3 years,
and I have many more to spend,
I have my guardian angel,
I have a best friend...

I Love you Her x

Her...one word that means so much to me.
A simple reaching from Her,a msg left,a txt and my heart soars.

I try not to say too often those four letters
that mean so much to many.
Not because i don't want do,
oh i do so very much.

I wish i could tell Her every day,
let Her see and feel just what she's
become to me.

But i cannot do this, i have my role,
i must protect our hearts, keep them 'so'
for they, in this life, are promised not to each other, but to others close.

Her, i just wanted, no...needed to tell you,
that even thought i cant, even though we can never be more,
even though i try so hard to keep us 'so'
on this journey,
it is not always easy to keep my heart from
bursting, not always easy to keep my
soul from soaring away.
For that is just what you do to me. x

I love you Her,
No one knows how long this will last,
I hope and pray a long long time
for it noursishes all that i am.

You give me everything and so much more
than i ever dreamed off,
and you will forever, forever be lodged in my heart.

I love you Her,
I just need to tell you that. x

My Love Rises

If "Be there for you"
Is all my real life about
And "Satisfy your vow"
Are all my attempts about,
Will faith still be our value?

If the fact of being nice,
Could be a good advice.
If I look into your eyes,
It shall not melt like ice,
And cause sorrow to rise!

If there are hate and love,
And, randomely, lothsome
Is part of our unused words,
Love, on purpose, should be
One of used, in preference!

If love is designed for us,
And, in fact, has no cost,
If we know of the beginning,
& are unconscious of the end,
Shouldn't we take advantage?

If you wake up tomorrow,
Your path seems to be narrow,
Our planbet reduced in size,
And goods decreased in prices,
Know that my true love rises!

Touched By An Angel With Love

There is nothing else I cherish more in my life
then have you helping me through my strife
in my moments of despair you hear my cry
kiss my tears away and to make me smile you try

You are always near when the tide turns rough
you make situations sound easy when they are tough
you understand my needs even before I speak
you point out my strength when I fall down weak

When I shut you out and sink into my darkness
tenderly you open the door and fill me with happiness
when I fly into a rage and refuse to be calm
you soothe me cradling me in your arms

At times I say leave me alone and go away
you hug me and whisper from you I will never stray
there are times with my words I have hurt you
you forgive and forget and say I love you

When I am sick and feeling very down
you take away my pain and my frown
everything you do and say makes me smile
listening to your voice I forget my tiring miles

You care for me so much you never fail to show
my heart to you it belongs I hope you know
you are the one God sent to me from above
I'm lucky to be touched by an angel with love

The Reasons I Love You

I love how we met, when you stop by to look for a friend in my class
The way you looked, your dress so tight
I loved our first time together, at the visitors lounge
I fell for you, holding me tight
I love your smile, and your full lips
When ours meet, heaven in a glimpse
I love your sweetness, how you make me first
You fill my heart, enough to burst
I love listening to naughty songs, with you by my side
Those long summer night calls, with never a goodbye
I love how you, are just like me
We belong together, in a house by the sea
I love the look, that you give with grace
Whenever I, wipe the hair from your face
I love you, more than I can say
Always had me wishing, for one more day
I love you, that will never change
If you left, I would derange
I love it when, your hair is a mess

I love it how, you put your head on my shoulders
I love it how, when we play tongue games

I love it how, we wrap ourselves around each other
I love you, for everything you are
For the times we spent, together at school

For the times we spent, chatting on skype

For the times we spent, chatting via text messages

For the times we spent, chatting on phone
I love you, because I know you’ll be here
When I go to sleep, to hold me secure

                                                                To My Lovely Angel

Love is an equation waiting to be solved

Signs You’re Meant To Be

1. You tell him things you don’t tell anyone else. We don’t mean blurting something out after you’ve had too much merlot, but the desire to tell him intimate details about your life means you trust him—a major component of successful long-term love

2. You let him see you in moments of weakness. It’s easy to be happy with someone when you’re feeling good about life. But what about when you’re not doing so well? Do you want to see her when you’ve been denied a raise, or your cat died or you had a plain old bad day? She should be a comfort during tough times, not a burden.

3. You respect him. You don’t want to change the essence of who he is. There may be stuff that irritates you in everyday life—he insists on wearing his favorites, holey T-shirt, he eats sugar cereal for dinner, he still watches Saturday morning cartoons—but you like him, plain and simple.

4. You want him to meet your parents. You feel proud of him and you want to show him off—as opposed to feeling like you have to make excuses for him.

5. You can imagine a future together. You don’t have to practice writing your first name with his last name, but do you periodically let your mind wander to picture a life together? Is it amazing?

6. You’re not afraid to disagree with him. You know that even if you fight, he’ll listen to you and won’t brush you off. He takes you seriously, even when he thinks you’re wrong.

7. It’s OK to be quiet around her. You don’t feel like you have to fill the space between you with chatter or other interaction. Instead, you feel an easy comfort.

8. You feel like yourself around him. You don’t feel like you have to edit your thoughts; you’re not self-conscious or anxious.

9. You need him the right amount. You long for him—but not too much. Some neediness is good but too much breeds discontent.

10. You don’t feel too jealous. You’re comfortable with him going out with his friends—even female friends. You let each other have your own lives and hobbies. Feeling Jealous? Could Be A Good Thing

11. You feel like she makes you a better person. She makes you feel smart, funny, attractive, creative—like the best version of yourself. You feel like she brings out and complements the best parts of you.

12. He just gets you. Sometimes it’s that easy. You feel like she understands some essential part of you that you can’t explain or articulate. It’s a warm, comfortable feeling—and one you should have with the person you marry. 

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