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A Lonely Broken Heart

2012-01-10T04:42:00.001-08:00

There's no way to hide it, darling.
I can see you within.
Deep down, you're broken inside.
Hiding many secrets from the world.
You aren't what you once where.
Not the girl I used to know.
That fake smile; it doesn't prove a thing.
You changed into something new.
A clone, a poser, it's what you are.
Trying to fit in with what you aren't.
Truthfully, I'm happy your group left you behind.
Perhaps it will teach you a lesson.
You have nothing now, you see, they never treated you right.
They never cared.
I always was aware.
I tried to warn you numerous times.
You didn't listen to my words.
You chose them over me.
Popularity over one who would give you more love and warmth than anyone ever could.
You're attempting to come crawling back to me, you seek my attention, or do you?
Maybe you're just lonely, left behind.
You lack friendship.
You know you have no best friend.
You have many people in your life, yet you feel so alone.
You feel dead inside.
Broken, sorry, lonely.
You have no one to share your deepest, darkest secrets with.
You keep it in.
You try to be apart of the popularity.
You try to believe you're the best thing that ever walked the earth.
Deep down, you know you aren't.
You long for a best friend.
I could've been that.
Yet you betrayed me, and gave me up for everything else.
Other people, far more better than I could ever be.
One thing they couldn't beat me in; love.
I could've given you so much more.
You threw that oppurtunity away.
One day, you'll regret it. You'll regret every second of it.
Maybe today is that day.

Remember

2012-01-10T04:41:00.003-08:00

I'm looking back on my childhood,
Back at my blurred memories
And I focus on one in particular,
One that is slowly starting to cease:
I am four, maybe five,
And I am waking from my sleep.
I slowly crawl out of my bed
And try not to make a peep.
As I tip toe down the hallway
And pass by His lair,
I hear Him say,
"Come snuggle with me,"
To my dreadful despair.
Trying to talk my way out of it,
I say, "But I don't want to,"
But by the look on His face,
I know I'm gonna have to.
So I shuffle to His bed
And crawl disgustedly under the covers.
As He binds me tight
With His strong, imprisoning arms,
His booze-hinted breath
Reminds me
To let my consciousness hover
For my 5 year old self
Knows what comes next
But my 14 year old self
Only knows the effects:
My heart has been hardened
With frozen distrust
And my body flinches
Every time it is touched.
I try hard to remember
What happened that morning
But something keeps blocking me
And it feels like a warning.
Though I have nothing to be warned about
For He is no longer in my life
So I wonder why remembering
Is such a strife.
I want to press onward
In my probing of my memory
But I am too tired from the effort
So maybe it'll all come back to me.
Maybe, just maybe.

Someone Who Cares

2012-01-10T04:41:00.001-08:00

It’s so terrible

Everyone’s against you

You need a miracle

Or else you’ll never make it through

It’s so horrible

Why do I let you stay?

Maybe I’m your miracle

Or maybe you should go away

//You’re always feeling sorry for yourself

I try to talk to you but it never helps

There’s always something to complain about

Why do I hang around?

I’ve got better things to do

Than sit around and listen to you

Complain about how life’s not fair

Save it for someone who cares//

It’s so confusing

You can’t make up your mind

It’s constantly changing

You never decide

It’s so amusing

You think no one’s got it worse than you

But maybe did you think

You should try looking from a different view

//Chorus//

Stop feeling sorry for yourself

You’ve got nothing worse than anyone else

//Chorus//

You

2011-12-24T09:39:00.000-08:00

You are friendly, kind, and caring
sensitive, loyal, and understanding,
humorous, fun, secure, and true
always there... yeah that's you.

Special, accepting, exciting, wise
truthful, helpful, with honest brown eyes
confining, forgiving, cheerful and bright
yes that you...not one bit of spite.

your one of a kind, diff rent from others
generous, charming, but not one that smothers
optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game
but not just another... in the long chain

appreciative, warm, precious like gold
our friendship wont tarnish or never grow
old.
you'll always be there, i know that's true
I'll always be here; always for you.

Forget Him

2011-12-24T09:38:00.001-08:00

I'll forget his name,
Forget his face,
Forget his touch,
His warm embrace.
I'll forget the love
I thought I knew,
And remember he has
Someone new.
I'll forget him when
They play our song,
And remember when I'd cry
All night long.
I'll forget how close
We used to be,
And remember he chose
To leave me.
I'll forget how I
Memorized his walk,
Forget how long
We used to talk.
I'll forget the things
He used to say,
And remember he chose
Not to stay.
I'll forget his laugh,
Forget his grin,
Forget how his smile
Would make me
Melt within.
I'll forget the way
He'd hold me tight,
And remember he's dreaming
Of her tonight.
I'll forget the time
That went so fast,
Forget the love
That wouldn't last.
I'll forget he said
He'd leave me never,
And remember he is
Gone forever...
I'm sure I'll learn
To forget all this
But the one thing
I'll always remember
Is I really wanted him
To be my first kiss...

Where did I go wrong?

2011-12-24T06:19:00.001-08:00

Where did I go wrong?

Was I too closed up and scared?

I assumed our friendship was strong

And that is was something special we shared

I know I sound dramatic

Depressed, alone.

Maybe even pathetic

But was I so wrong?

I lost you now

Years of friendship down the drain

It hurts so much to know

That never again we will dance together in the rain

We had days of laughter and years of fun

How can you say that you are done?

Done with me,

Done with all that you see

I never knew I was that bad

Since when do I only make you mad?

Maybe I was wrong

Maybe this was my fault

Maybe I should have known

Maybe, maybe, you are right

I guess it is impossible to remain friends with someone like me

When I am really as selfish and anti-social as you say me to be

But I have a little something to say too:

I know for sure, that I’m going to miss you

Beautiful Rain

2011-12-24T06:15:00.001-08:00

As I watched the pouring rain
The sun shined on every drop
Just admiring the beauty
of one drop.

I never felt the rain on my skin
I could only see it coming down
From the clouds hanging
In the blue sky

It seemed as if... the rain
Is coming from nothing
But still washing
Our world.

As the rain dropped on my notes
It blurred away all of my thoughts
The only thing that swirled in my mind
was...

How beautiful it was
To feel safe under the water drops...

A Black Woman, Nothing Else

2011-11-30T14:21:00.001-08:00

There used to be a time when
I was ashamed of my skin.
I received tormenting jokes
from all of my friends.

Of course it wasn't done
to make me feel this way
But being black gave me much dismay.

"African, charcoal, Black Baby",
I would hear
But no one even noticed or knew
That I had silent tears.

Those names became nicknames and
I'd hear them everyday at school
‘Cause when I was young and growing up
I'd play by my peers rules.

One day when I was still young
My father left us all
And married a white woman
Who beckoned his every call.

I was really ashamed of my skin then,
I thought it was very bad,
I thought the white woman had something
Which I could never have.

But one day when I was still young
I met a black lady darker than I was,
She cherished and boasted that her
Color was a gift from above.

She told me that I was beautiful -
Something no one had ever done.
She said, "your skin is
So black and smooth-
Which shows the perfecting of the sun".

She said, "To match the pretty black skin
Your teeth are white as snow
And I'm sure that you will show them
Everywhere that you go".

Everyday she would tell me this
And her words began to spread.
They came from other people
I never even met.

The words of my friends changed to,
"Let me feel your face

And let me see you grin"-
For sister, you are beautiful-
Be proud of the color of your skin.

Now, I'm not ashamed of my skin
Though obstacles it may bring.
I proclaim to the world that I am
A Black Woman, the element of spring.

I blossom with happiness
And pride within myself
For I am A Black Woman
And I wish to be nothing else.

The End

2011-11-28T13:24:00.000-08:00

I thought I couldn't survive another day after it ended, but i did, for you.
and i thrived on hope and the happy memories, those could always make me smile.
and then you took those memories away and spoiled them all,
mutilating and deforming them with all your lies.
and when the memories left, so did my hope.
now I'm left with nothing, and i cant survive another single day.
goodbye. remember ill always love you.

Proof Heart

2011-11-28T13:22:00.002-08:00

The days filled with longing, for you ever more
but you left me behind in one second, to be drowned in dust.
I will never understand..
I loved you, cared for you,
would break my soul in half for you,
yet you left me here to rust.
I deny the emotions rushing like a storm,
even if I died tomorrow you'd think nothing of it and walk to another girl or boy...
I know how you work..
you'll leave every memory we had..
glance into the mask I show..
but things are different, I refuse to be your toy..

Someone I'm Not

2011-11-28T13:22:00.000-08:00

Some people say to be like them,
But being unique is good,
It's different
People say different is bad,
Horrible
Not to exist
So are they saying,
That I'M not supposed to exist?
People tell me to be, special
But I can't be special when I'm being forced
I'm being told to be someone I'm not
Sure, I may not be pretty, smart, or athletic
Or preppy, popular, and rich
But beauty doesn't come from money, or looks
It counts from what is inside
From being yourself,
And not someone you're not

The Venom of the mind...

2011-11-28T13:21:00.000-08:00

Hold my hand
Trust in me
Walk in sand
You will see

Ray of light
Head to toe
See the bright
There we'll go

Afraid not
I am here
Reach the lot
You're a dear

I am bad
You are good
Don't be sad
There's no mood

I lure you
You held it
What to do?
Just feel it

No such fate
It's you fault
No more date
Eat the salt

Suffer here
Feel the pain
You came here
You will drain

Bold Beauty

2011-11-28T13:20:00.000-08:00

His innocent ways,
With every words he says.
Darkening eyes,
That hypnotize my mind.

The sly smile that he wears,
Makes it hard not to stare.
Thoughts that I wish would disappear,
From his mind as he faces a mirror.
Quickly turning away,
After one look he sighs in dismay.

If only you would see,
What I see when you look at me.
Your beauty with in and out,
Shown amongst you without a doubt.

Bold and Beauty.
No denying,
What I see.

Your heart, your soul
Extra ordinary like no other fool.
No one can compare.

Your voice whispers,
Causing me to smile.
Washing away my fear and anger,
With one touch of your hand.

His vibrant actions,
Cause my unforgettable attraction.
I love you dear.

A second chance,
To restart what unfolded.
By your side,
Never wanting to leave.
My love.

Bold and Beauty mixed with in.
If only you would see what I see,
When I look at you.

Your sly smile.
Darkening eyes.
Vibrant moves.
Unforgettable words.
You are Extra ordinary.

Light

2011-11-28T13:19:00.001-08:00

Here I lay
Shrouded in cold, ever lasting darkness
No past...
No Present...
No future....
But out of no where
A ray of light appears, washing away the darkness
And in that light
There's an angel
Smiling as she extends her hand
Pulling me into her warm embrace
She tells me that there's nothing to fear
Slowly she takes me into the light, washing away all of my fears and my pain
"Don't let go" I whisper, feeling the light touch my heart
But as soon as it came, it was gone
As the darkness reappears, I see a light glowing in my chest
Then I hear her voice...
Calling softly from the fearsome dark
"I won't let you go"

Temptation

2011-11-28T13:18:00.000-08:00

Lays their on the floor with tears in her eyes.
What happened to her a thousand reasons to smile?
Completely shattered inside.
With not knowing whether to continue or not.
Wears a smile so big no one can see through to see her pain.
So tempted to go back to her old friend .
Who's been hidden in a box for no one to find.
Ready to be visited one more time.
So lost in this world feel so alone.

I'm a boy, and i like boys

2011-11-08T12:58:00.001-08:00

I'm a boy
And i like eyeliner
Deal with it,
It's whoI am
I'm a boy
And i like Lady gaga
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And I like nailpolish
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like hello kitty
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like glitter
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like poetry
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like chic flicks
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like acting
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And i like boys
Deal with it,
It's who I am
I'm a boy
And I am GAY
Accept it,
Because I'm never changing

You and I

2011-11-08T12:57:00.001-08:00

A little more time and you will see
It is meant to be, You and me
Time is a wonder, A thought to ponder
How long will I wait, For you to take
our hands held,Arms wrapped around
Our two feet firm on the ground
No one will touch us, Tell us were wrong
Cause whenever we're together its a song
One of love, and people together
For its you and me forever
Only time will tell, Take me from this hell
Give me your heart, And mix it with mine
Click Clock is the sound that it makes
With you next to me I will always wake
Up close next to you face to face
Together both our hearts will race
Don't play this game that they play with myhead
Because surelly that'll be the reason to be dead
The clock on the wall keeps on turning
Wanting you in my arms to stop from hurting
I'll wait right here until your ready
We can take it slow and steady
So let me know what you want
i lay right here till its thought
My six last words I give to you
I want you more and more
So before you leave out that door
Let me know its for sure

Her suicide

2011-11-08T12:56:00.003-08:00

This racket I hear in the back of my head
I hear rambling, from the dead
The love you once showed, now blown
This is how it needs to be known
Her tears, Made of crystal
The mind gone by a pistol
One last breathe to let loose
The knot tied in a noose
Her two hands on her chest
While they lie her down to rest
Everyone looks and crys real hard
A memorial in the yard
A girl who barely knew the world
She thought it was all a chore
When all the boys called her a whore
She knew she didn't want it no more
Shes dead and gone and they now care
Her heart is gone without dispare
With friends and family all around
They all look down at the ground
Now three years and your still gone
At this grave your name in stone
You were to young to have left this life
You ended it all by the knife

What To Say When Your Boyfriend Breaks Up With You (applicable to guys and girls)

2011-11-08T12:56:00.001-08:00

• I think it’s probably for the best. I didn’t want to hurt your feelings, but I realised a while ago that I see you as more of a brother figure.
• That's alright, because I love you BUT I'm not in love with you.
• I had a feeling your heart wasn’t in it anymore, because there didn’t seem to be any passion there.
• I think I’ve been guilty of romanticizing the whole thing. You’re not really everything I thought you’d be.
• That's okay, I know I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable!
• If you're going to hurt me, do it quickly... Because I'm not spending any more time crying over someone who's not going to stick around.
• Thanks - because I fell out of love with you ages ago and just didn't know how to tell you.
• Oh, that's a relief because I've fallen in love with someone else.
• OK, no hard feelings - So is it OK if I date your best friend/boss/brother/father?
• OK, let's bury this relationship and be done with it.
• I want to break up too, because I couldn't stand another day being around you.
• I guess you don’t realize how much you care about someone until they don’t care about you.
• Oh. Poor me!
• Yeah well i was getting kind of bored dating you.
• Well we were going to split over religious differences sooner or later anyway, what with you thinking you're God and me disagreeing...
• Well, all I can say is thankyou for being the one to show me what kind of guy I don't want to be with.
• Gosh you must have been reading my mind - I've wanted out of this crappy relationship with you for weeks now!
• Hmmm. I'm just wondering what I was doing when you decided you didn't want me any more!
• I want to thank you for giving me the worst day of my life.
• Oh thank goodness - now I don't have to pretend I've been happy in our relationship!
• If one day I actually start to matter, let me know.
• Well, my big mistake wasn't falling for you. It was being foolish enough to think you fell for me too.

Remember the Time

2011-11-08T12:55:00.001-08:00

Let the sands of time flow by...
Let this life fade away...
Just remember yesterday...
Remember how the war ended...
Remember how time stopped...
Remember the time when we thought we could never die...
Remember the time when we thought we could fly...
Let the sands of time claim another night...
Let this life break away..
Just remember yesterday...
Remember how we shared a dance...
Remember how you gave me a chance...
Remember the time they broke your heart...
Remember the time I found you in the dark...
I wish to mend your heart...
Let the sands of time pass by my life....
Let me fade away...
Only to bring you another day...
Forget yesterday....

Depression

2011-10-31T15:27:00.003-07:00

Depression is the color grey on a dull school day
It sounds like a child's cry
and it tastes like a bitter grapefruit
It smells like death in a graveyard
It looks like a hospital
I hope you never catch it's sick
It feels like a rough board
Depression is the color black with no expression
It sounds like silence on a boring day
It tastes like a sour lemon
It smells like a swamp
It looks like people in pain
It makes me feel like someone is
poking me with needles
Depression is the color red in somenone's eyes
after they cry
It sounds like a heart moniter reaching it's last beeps
It taste like a cold piece of ice; tasteless,
it smells like onions
it looks like a blind human beingIt feels like something stinging me

My Last Love Letter

2011-10-31T15:27:00.001-07:00

I've made my decision;
I'm not changing my mind.
I'm saying goodbye
To the life I must leave behind.
But I have a task to do
Before I go;
I must write I letter
To my used to be paramour.
You see, I loved him
And I now love him even more
But I made a mistake
In which his heart
I unintentionally tore.
And once I realized
I was a complete fool for doing so,
He found another lover
And I was then engulfed
With agonizing sorrow.
I tried to hide my pain
And put on a smile
Whenever they walk by.
But as soon as I'm alone,
I crawl up into a ball
And spontaneously cry.
I cannot keep this up any longer
So in the letter below
I will write to my former lover
And explain to him
Why I must go:
"By the time you read this
I would already be gone.
But I just want to let you know
What I've been holding in
For so long.
I miss your
Deep blue eyes
Staring passionately into mine.
I miss your
Warm gentle hands;
The feeling I'd get
When yours and mine entwined.
I miss your
Charming sense of humor;
How it always
Brightened up my day.
I even miss your lips;
Though we never kissed,
You always knew
What to say.
I miss your protective arms;
How I felt when they embraced me.
And most of all,
I miss your love;
I can't believe you fell away
So easily.
As I wrap up this letter
With tears falling down my cheeks,
I'll swallow the pill
And finally get to rest
In peace."
I've made my decision;
It's too late to change my mind.
I've said goodbye
To the life I left behind.

Because of You

2011-10-31T15:26:00.003-07:00

I wonder if you're proud.
Or if you even know.
You're the reason I let go,
And now I'm not afraid to say it out loud.
You ruined my view on love.
You ruined my view on men.
Now because of you I'll never trust again.
Deep inside is where my heart is shoved.
Now because of you,
I'll never risk it all.
So now it's impossible for me to fall.
Something I was getting used to.
Because of you I don't use my heart.
I ever hardly think.
I wont even blush at a wink.
Thanks for tearing me completely apart.
Because of you I'm stronger.
Because of you I live in fear.
Because of you I bring no one near.
Because of you I'm weaker.

Here Lies The Girl

2011-10-31T15:26:00.001-07:00

Here lies the girl
With a broken heart;
The girl who unknowingly
Tore herself apart.
Here lies the girl
With the tear stained eyes;
The girl who fell in love
Which wasn't very wise.
Here lies the girl
With the scarred up skin
For carving up her frail body
Was the only way of controlling
The torture brewing within.
Here lies the girl
With nothing but skin and bone
For her appetite she lost
Because she felt so alone.
Here lies the girl
Who used to be strong.
But the pain made her weak
So she didn't last long.
Here lies the girl
Who tried to get help
But what was supposed to be a cry
Came out as a weak yelp.
Here lies the girl
Who loved him so.
But he stopped loving her
So she had to go.
Here lies the girl
And gripped tightly in her hand
Is a simple piece of paper
That reads her final demand.
It is directed to her love
And using purposefully 2 vowels
Are the words written in blood,
"Happy now?"

Under the net of our kisses

2011-10-02T00:26:00.000-07:00

Drunk as drunk on turpentine
From your open kisses,
Your wet body wedged
Between my wet body and the strake
Of our boat that is made of flowers,
Feasted, we guide it - our fingers
Like tallows adorned with yellow metal -
Over the sky's hot rim,
The day's last breath in our sails.

Pinned by the sun between solstice
And equinox, drowsy and tangled together
We drifted for months and woke
With the bitter taste of land on our lips,
Eyelids all sticky, and we longed for lime
And the sound of a rope
Lowering a bucket down its well. Then,
We came by night to the Fortunate Isles,
And lay like fish
Under the net of our kisses.

Pablo Neruda

One

2011-10-02T00:22:00.000-07:00

The mosquito is so small

it takes almost nothing to ruin it.

Each leaf, the same.

And the black ant, hurrying.

So many lives, so many fortunes!

Every morning, I walk softly and with forward glances

down to the ponds and through the pinewoods.

Mushrooms, even, have but a brief hour

before the slug creeps to the feast,

before the pine needles hustle down

under the bundles of harsh, beneficent rain.

How many, how many, how many

make up a world!

And then I think of that old idea: the singular

and the eternal.

One cup, in which everything is swirled

back to the color of the sea and sky.

Imagine it!

A shining cup, surely!

In the moment in which there is no wind

over your shoulder,

you stare down into it,

and there you are,

your own darling face, your own eyes.

And then the wind, not thinking of you, just passes by,

touching the ant, the mosquito, the leaf,

and you know what else!

How blue is the sea, how blue is the sky,

how blue and tiny and redeemable everything is, even you,

even your eyes, even your imagination.

Mary Olive

Parting Word

2011-10-02T00:21:00.001-07:00

As for me

I have no mind

to lose anymore, I am through

with all that -

the sky is my mind

today.(And

it always is

and always was

today.) Blue,

her color

sorrowing over us ...

Does it flow out of or into us, seeing?

Unseen ray of perception the face beams

at things, or

face on which things shine!

I am so glad

that I no longer know,

no longer

care.

And one more thing:

the future?

Never

been there.

Franz Wright

How Could You?

2011-09-14T07:54:00.001-07:00

How could you turn your back on me when I screamed your name so loud?
How could you let me fall away from you, did you get too proud?
How could you watch as I died a gruesome death and broke apart?
How could you walk away from me, or were you never really there to start?

How could you be so cruel to me when all I ever tried to do was fit in?
How could you be so hypocritical when I spoke my secrets from deep within?
How could you have said those things and pretended that they were true?
How could you have meant them all-I don't understand what you're trying to do.

How could you pull the floor from beneath me when I just learned to stand?
Please, could you just explain this to me, Because I don't understand..
How could you play this game of pretend and play the part of a friend?
How could you be so thoughtless, how could you want this all to end?

How could you look me in the eye and say the cruelest of words?
How could you say you listened to me when you never really heard?
How could you stick this knife in my chest, then twist it where you wanted it to go?
Please answer me all these questions, I really need to know

How could you have done things things and live with no regret?
How could you not remember what you said, how could you forget?
How could you say you'd do it, and then never really follow through
But really, I just have one question to ask ... I just want to know, How could you??

Just Friends

2011-09-14T07:53:00.003-07:00

Sometimes I wonder if you know
Exactly how I feel
Our love is not romantic
But still is very real

We’ve held each other and cried out loud
And shared a kiss or two
But every time you walk away
I lose respect for you

You come to me when you feel bad
And everything goes wrong
Always expecting happiness
And to hear a cheery song

I sympathize and pull you close
And try to ease your pains
When the sun comes back, you are gone
‘Til the next time that it rains

I’ll always be here when you hurt
I know you know I’ll stay
But I’m not sure you’d miss me
If I ever went away

Friends in deed are a very rare find
Not too many stick it out
Through the good times and bad
Giving no cause to doubt

So don’t take that friend for granted
Tomorrow you may be alone
With no one around to help you
And pain like you’ve never known

I have a best friend...

2011-09-14T07:53:00.001-07:00

I have a best friend...
In the sandbox we used to play,
We grew up with eachother,
but things ended up this way

I began to meet some new friends,
they all seemed pretty nice,
You told me they were the wrong crew,
But I didn't take your advice

I started smoking and drinking,
sneaking out and skipping school,
I never returned your phonecalls
because I was just too cool

I never told you the truth,
I just had to lie,
You told me I needed help
And all I could say was why?

I went to a party that night,
And I got so messed up I couldn't talk,
I tried to cross the street,
but I could barely walk

I heard a loud engine,
and I saw a bright light,
I then felt a great shove,
and I looked to my right

You'd been hit by a Semi,
With all the blood I could see,
You just pushed me out of the way
And that's how it had to be

A tear rolled down my face,
I could tell that you were dead,
I hugged your lifeless body
and wished it was me instead

I've been sober for 3 years,
and I have many more to spend,
I have my guardian angel,
I have a best friend...

I Love you Her x

2011-09-13T19:01:00.001-07:00

Her...one word that means so much to me.
A simple reaching from Her,a msg left,a txt and my heart soars.

I try not to say too often those four letters
that mean so much to many.
Not because i don't want do,
oh i do so very much.

I wish i could tell Her every day,
let Her see and feel just what she's
become to me.

But i cannot do this, i have my role,
i must protect our hearts, keep them 'so'
for they, in this life, are promised not to each other, but to others close.

Her, i just wanted, no...needed to tell you,
that even thought i cant, even though we can never be more,
even though i try so hard to keep us 'so'
on this journey,
it is not always easy to keep my heart from
bursting, not always easy to keep my
soul from soaring away.
For that is just what you do to me. x

I love you Her,
No one knows how long this will last,
I hope and pray a long long time
for it noursishes all that i am.

You give me everything and so much more
than i ever dreamed off,
and you will forever, forever be lodged in my heart.

I love you Her,
I just need to tell you that. x

My Love Rises

2011-09-13T19:00:00.001-07:00

If "Be there for you"
Is all my real life about
And "Satisfy your vow"
Are all my attempts about,
Will faith still be our value?

If the fact of being nice,
Could be a good advice.
If I look into your eyes,
It shall not melt like ice,
And cause sorrow to rise!

If there are hate and love,
And, randomely, lothsome
Is part of our unused words,
Love, on purpose, should be
One of used, in preference!

If love is designed for us,
And, in fact, has no cost,
If we know of the beginning,
& are unconscious of the end,
Shouldn't we take advantage?

If you wake up tomorrow,
Your path seems to be narrow,
Our planbet reduced in size,
And goods decreased in prices,
Know that my true love rises!

Touched By An Angel With Love

2011-09-13T18:51:00.001-07:00

There is nothing else I cherish more in my life
then have you helping me through my strife
in my moments of despair you hear my cry
kiss my tears away and to make me smile you try

You are always near when the tide turns rough
you make situations sound easy when they are tough
you understand my needs even before I speak
you point out my strength when I fall down weak

When I shut you out and sink into my darkness
tenderly you open the door and fill me with happiness
when I fly into a rage and refuse to be calm
you soothe me cradling me in your arms

At times I say leave me alone and go away
you hug me and whisper from you I will never stray
there are times with my words I have hurt you
you forgive and forget and say I love you

When I am sick and feeling very down
you take away my pain and my frown
everything you do and say makes me smile
listening to your voice I forget my tiring miles

You care for me so much you never fail to show
my heart to you it belongs I hope you know
you are the one God sent to me from above
I'm lucky to be touched by an angel with love

The Reasons I Love You

2011-09-13T18:43:00.000-07:00

I love how we met, when you stop by to look for a friend in my class
The way you looked, your dress so tight
I loved our first time together, at the visitors lounge
I fell for you, holding me tight
I love your smile, and your full lips
When ours meet, heaven in a glimpse
I love your sweetness, how you make me first
You fill my heart, enough to burst
I love listening to naughty songs, with you by my side
Those long summer night calls, with never a goodbye
I love how you, are just like me
We belong together, in a house by the sea
I love the look, that you give with grace
Whenever I, wipe the hair from your face
I love you, more than I can say
Always had me wishing, for one more day
I love you, that will never change
If you left, I would derange
I love it when, your hair is a mess

I love it how, you put your head on my shoulders
I love it how, when we play tongue games

I love it how, we wrap ourselves around each other
I love you, for everything you are
For the times we spent, together at school

For the times we spent, chatting on skype

For the times we spent, chatting via text messages

For the times we spent, chatting on phone
I love you, because I know you’ll be here
When I go to sleep, to hold me secure

To My Lovely Angel

Love is an equation waiting to be solved

2011-09-13T12:28:00.000-07:00

Signs You’re Meant To Be

2011-09-13T12:04:00.000-07:00

1. You tell him things you don’t tell anyone else. We don’t mean blurting something out after you’ve had too much merlot, but the desire to tell him intimate details about your life means you trust him—a major component of successful long-term love

2. You let him see you in moments of weakness. It’s easy to be happy with someone when you’re feeling good about life. But what about when you’re not doing so well? Do you want to see her when you’ve been denied a raise, or your cat died or you had a plain old bad day? She should be a comfort during tough times, not a burden.

3. You respect him. You don’t want to change the essence of who he is. There may be stuff that irritates you in everyday life—he insists on wearing his favorites, holey T-shirt, he eats sugar cereal for dinner, he still watches Saturday morning cartoons—but you like him, plain and simple.

4. You want him to meet your parents. You feel proud of him and you want to show him off—as opposed to feeling like you have to make excuses for him.

5. You can imagine a future together. You don’t have to practice writing your first name with his last name, but do you periodically let your mind wander to picture a life together? Is it amazing?

6. You’re not afraid to disagree with him. You know that even if you fight, he’ll listen to you and won’t brush you off. He takes you seriously, even when he thinks you’re wrong.

7. It’s OK to be quiet around her. You don’t feel like you have to fill the space between you with chatter or other interaction. Instead, you feel an easy comfort.

8. You feel like yourself around him. You don’t feel like you have to edit your thoughts; you’re not self-conscious or anxious.

9. You need him the right amount. You long for him—but not too much. Some neediness is good but too much breeds discontent.

10. You don’t feel too jealous. You’re comfortable with him going out with his friends—even female friends. You let each other have your own lives and hobbies. Feeling Jealous? Could Be A Good Thing

11. You feel like she makes you a better person. She makes you feel smart, funny, attractive, creative—like the best version of yourself. You feel like she brings out and complements the best parts of you.

12. He just gets you. Sometimes it’s that easy. You feel like she understands some essential part of you that you can’t explain or articulate. It’s a warm, comfortable feeling—and one you should have with the person you marry.

Are you meant to be? Let us know in the comment box below

Manipulation Mosquito

2011-09-13T05:45:00.000-07:00

Mosquito seizures,

elevation crescendo,

waffle patio,

rugged leisures.

Errand wheat,

smitten footing,

I'm not your trophy,

if grief is all you provide

then march your webs to

disappearance,

I'll be beautifully fine

once you're out of my greet.

Shed some more spills,

who manipulates who?

Sure I tell my story

but at least I have a pulse,

I can stand single and dance.

Strings of formula contact

the regiments of fleece,

all you do is smother the voice,

your own life is an avoidance,

you slide darkly on the grease.

I'm not wanting to be a victim,

you're planting a seed of turmoil,

you're consecrating the bud,

murder what you will,

I'm still the name of

admirable shudder,

my package of

delights you won't spoil.

It's around yourself where

the snake venom must coil,

measure up the deed of upset,

bring the pot of

ingredients to a boil.

Call me manipulative,

say I deceived you greatly,

tell the whole invitation,

call me what surpasses.

I don't have time for

your childish labels

nor your monkey wrongs.

Haven't I always said

just who I was going to be?

Day one to day now,

invention ballerina

twirling the discovery and

blocking further

disappointment songs.

Manipulation awesome,

applesauce the show,

to you I'm just a performance,

one entertain after brilliance,

none of my problems are

written in real concrete,

I'm just the person you're

warned to stay away from

but in the end your curiosity

will cause your interest to grow.

Empty Courtney

just lives all alone,

it's cozy in her head,

but she really

programs a dread.

Butterscotch cupcake,

sugar dreams, sailor drains,

vein swirled give me for the take.

Duty terminal,

bleeder swings,

firework pear,

live like a fountain sings.

Call me manipulative,

say I deceived you greatly,

tell the whole invitation,

call me what surpasses.

I don't have time for

your childish labels

nor your monkey wrongs.

Haven't I always said

just who I was going to be?

Day one to day now,

invention ballerina

twirling the discovery and

blocking further

disappointment songs.

My life is my

blood corpse,

revival grasses

collapse to wander,

my heart is my salvation,

my mind is my temple,

I'll honor the standards,

I know in my heart that who

I am isn't a dead creation.

Manipulators do reap what they sow

but when have I ever made the exit

before I communicated thoroughly?

From first encounter

you should've known

what you were grasping.

I have some baggage,

not of my volunteer.

To dismiss me because

I belong to my past is rude,

I treated you with tolerance,

where is yours to me in attitude?

When your fantasies all crumble

that's when you poster mourns,

share the responsibility

as to why that is,

your meloncholy droppings

kiss swollen treasures,

your air is burnt,

the sheets disposed of,

ribbon yahtze adorns.

I've never stabbed your back,

I had the courtesy to put a staple

on your front cover book.

Courtney's a danger to you,

I'm such a burden,

the bloated truck?

Originate my bedroom,

the winter coat I sew,

be angry with me,

but there's things right there

you just refuse yourself to know.

ﻯtealer of ﻯleepy ﻯouls

2011-09-13T05:44:00.000-07:00

"Welcome to my nightmare. I think
you're going to like it. There'll be
some more when you come down."

A dark void of space hangs heavy above
Clasping light away from all life below
Chilly breath of air, black in the night
Dusk shades fields, time for rest
Shut the windows, lock the doors
Head hits the pillow, eyes retire

As we sleep, It comes out to play...

It thrives under the veil of night
Having long awaited for it's prey
Laying festered in daylight hours
Midnight is the time for It's feed
Nourishment gained from spirits
Feasting on flesh, sucking souls

It's awaited witching hour has begun...

It's cadaverous claws reach for catching
It's body is made of shadowing tendrils,
moving as air, impossible to capture
It's eyes are vast, deep, hallow holes
It harbors fangs, sharper than razors
It inhales your presence, seeking you

It has it's catching, this is how you end...

It favors the throat, so delicate and fragile
Grasping the neck, It restricts the airways
It's sickly claws puncture the dainty skin
As life leaves your chest, It breathes you in
It devours every drop of your astral energy
Your spirit seeps into It, absorbing your soul

It retires for the night, but It is never truly gone...

Her Goodbyes to this Disguise

2011-09-13T05:43:00.000-07:00

One day I'll set myself free

for everyone, the world to see.

I'll burst out from this mask,

despite how large the task.

So heres to the end of lies,

as I say goodbye to this disguise:

Afraid of judgment in their eye

she decided to be herself on the sly.

Under the mascara, so much more,

A girl whos had glasses, since age four.

Behind a magazine, "4 eyes" covers

her books of adventure, mystery and lovers.

When everyone went to the salon to tan,

that’s when she pulled out her ipod and ran.

Dresses are tight and heels high,

but really, she just wants a nice guy.

They told her music was for dancing on the pole,

but at home she relaxes, lets it fill her soul.

At a party she may be someone hot,

in the morning it's no lie that she's not.

But the truth is, that’s when shes gorgeous.

When shes her natural self, not someone bogus.

Because she actually is someone real,

its just easier to watch, then control the wheel.

Mascara Dripping Down Her Cheek

2011-08-11T03:13:00.003-07:00

The heavy scars behind a tear,
The scenes unfolding, year after year,
She's sick of it all, unleashing her fear,
She's done with playing it by the ear.
*
Her emotions brew a flood,
Her heavy tears of blood,
Her heart melting into the mud,
Yearning to bloom into that bud.
*
The mascara running down her face,
As she struggles with winning that one race,
Her lips wet; face showing no grace,
Her heart damp, torn and looking for space.
*
Scenarios come and go,
Her tears take up more,
Waiting for that moment sweep-her-off-the-floor,
Anticipating something; turning out a big blow.
*
That moment, so fake,
Passes by with her ache,
That moment, although real,
Already made the seal.
*
The mascara running down her face,
As she struggles with winning that one race,
Her lips wet; evident disgrace,
Heart all damp; losing at her own pace.

Another Lie

2011-08-11T03:13:00.001-07:00

Only one wish....
I just have only one wish...
I want to learn for this...
this world where we leave...
I want to know how...
how everybody feel...
I want to know what...
what they think...
I want to be somebody...
and escape from nobody...
I want to feel, to love, to dream...
to see, to hear, to fly!
I want to touch the sky...

But all this world is just another
beautiful lie...

Catch Me, If You Can

2011-08-11T03:12:00.001-07:00

Rippling forth, water tempts your fingertips;

Smiling, you take the bait as I wet my lips.

The question flutters like a breeze:

“Why are you such a tease?”

Can you catch a wave?

Whether it charges forward or slides past,

All day you could slave,

And it would drift away, never meant to last.

Can you understand,

That which demands freedom in silence or in screams?

Entrance is banned,

To those who cannot fathom the sweetest, dangerous dreams.

“Catch me, if you can,”

Alight and alive with a grin,

I entice you to close the distance.

But I withdraw, it’s part of my persistence;

Chases are dull without resistance.

Singing away like when I ran,

“Catch me, if you can.”

If you can handle me, it’s a dare;

Gripping my wrist, you intensify my stare.

Please understand, I hate to lose, so I will advise:

If you cannot handle me, it will be your heart’s demise.

Locking my eyes with yours, your trap fails with my smile;

Certainly this was fun, but restraints fade after a while.

Show me something new or watch me disappear;

Like a ripple I am warped but crystal clear.

“Catch me, if you can,”

Alight and alive with a grin,

I entice you to close the distance.

But I withdraw, it’s part of my persistence;

Chases are dull without resistance.

Singing away like when I ran,

“Catch me, if you can.”

StillBorn

2011-08-11T03:10:00.000-07:00

"Push!"the doctor tells me
As I do what I am told
"Count to ten" says the nurse
As my breathing I control.

After a few more pushes
My baby boy is out
But something isn't right?
There's no cry, no scream or shout.

"What is wrong with him?"
I get the energy to ask
Looking over at my baby
On his face they place a mask.

I ask the same question
But this time i'm more upset
The nurses try to calm me down
And another doctor they go get.

Rushing from the room
My baby is taken away
"I want to hold my baby boy!,
Why can't he just stay?!"

Then everything goes silent
Before the doctor speaks
I know that something's wrong
My eyes begin to leak.

"I'm sorry for your loss,
Ma'am, i'm sorry you must mourn
But the child you delivered
Has come out a stillborn..."

Inspiration - Written by a great friend of mine

Same Old Day

2011-08-11T03:08:00.001-07:00

We all have bad days, but the world pushes us forward like machines, and like robots we keep waking up in the morning to another day of the same old thing.

And yeah, my eyes are melting;

my feet are sweating;

it's a hurricane beneath my toes,

but I keep pushing on.

Feeling under the weather,

under a tether,

under chains that keep me bound

around my wrist;

it's tight, sticks like glue

to my skin that I just can't resist.

Pumping life with machines through

bones, dusty and old,

setting into a new storm,

setting into a new throne,

and I feel the world

clipping tongues and

force feeding oxygen into broken lungs;

they want me to stand on my

own two feet,

and keep strong

even through the wrong;

through the pain, the sorrows,

the broken hearts of another tomorrow.

So I keep waking to the sun,

give out this tired and weary yawn,

and open my eyes to today.

It's all that I've got to hold on.

Where do I begin?

2011-08-05T10:10:00.000-07:00

Agonizingly, pulling myself together
Sewing my soul into a kindred resemblance
Molding my tattered remains into a person
Yet, this is not me; simply an artificial replica
Nothing can bring me internal peace
The sadness & loneliness stay; old friends
Chaos edges into my twisted thoughts
My emotions corrupted; indecisive
I need to fill this empty space
This hallow hole, this black void
The grim realization of depression,
Haunting me, stealing what little I have left
I constantly change, not staying for too long
My cold hands fiend for some warmth
My body longs for a comforting embrace
My bones start to ache; tired and old
I need an outlet; an eternal escape
The taunting grief nags at my sanity
This detrimental darkness suffocates
Only the shape of a person left
The emotions, the words, the life
All faded into an empty abeyance
Grief lingers; never taking it's leave
All that I was; stripped away
No longer myself; lost
I have to find me
Where do I begin?

Only Once In Your Life

2011-07-24T01:12:00.000-07:00

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.

In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby.

Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end.

Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."
— Bob Marley

Two Days We Should Not Worry

2011-07-24T01:09:00.001-07:00

There are two days in every week about which we should not worry,
two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension.

One of these days is Yesterday with all its mistakes and cares,
its faults and blunders, its aches and pains.

Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control.
All the money in the world cannot bring back Yesterday.

We cannot undo a single act we performed;
we cannot erase a single word we said.
Yesterday is gone forever.

The other day we should not worry about is Tomorrow
with all its possible adversities, its burdens,
its large promise and its poor performance;
Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control.

Tomorrow's sun will rise,
either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds, but it will rise.
Until it does, we have no stake in Tomorrow,
for it is yet to be born.

This leaves only one day, Today.
Any person can fight the battle of just one day.
It is when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternities
Yesterday and Tomorrow that we break down.

It is not the experience of Today that drives a person mad,
it is the remorse or bitterness of something which happened Yesterday
and the dread of what Tomorrow may bring.

Let us, therefore, Live but one day at a time.

Until it does, we have no stake in Tomorrow,
for it is yet to be born.

This leaves only one day, Today.
Any person can fight the battle of just one day.
It is when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternities
Yesterday and Tomorrow that we break down.

It is not the experience of Today that drives a person mad,
it is the remorse or bitterness of something which happened Yesterday
and the dread of what Tomorrow may bring.
Let us, therefore, live but one day at a time.

I'm Sorry

2011-07-24T01:08:00.003-07:00

I'm Sorry for liking you. Again.
I'm Sorry for hurting you.
I'm Sorry for every little thing i have done towards you.
We have been through alot, but something is making me hold on to you.

Don't Leave me like this.

I can't breath once your gone.
I'm Sorry for being a bitch.
I'm Sorry if i defended you.
I'm Sorry for every single lie.
I'm Sorry for not understanding you.

But Please, why leave me like this?

You were everything to me.
The nicest boy on earth.
Why Did i treat you so terribly wrong?
You were a Gentlemen, a real one.
You treated me right, but why did I hurt you?
I just want to say I am sorry.

But You already left. You're Gone, nowhere to be found.

.:. The Secret Behind Love .:.

2011-07-24T01:07:00.001-07:00

Some say love is about doing things together,
Sharing a simple life, taking a walk and admiring the weather…

Some say love is a game we play,
A bunch of strings you pull and let loose at different times throughout the day!

Some say love makes you blind; makes you lose grip with reality,
It causes your heart and mind to fight and never allows them to agree!

Some say love is a chemical reaction, a hormonal disruption!
It lasts for 6 months to 3 years and many factors could lead to its corruption!

Some say love is physical attraction nothing more,
If you gain a few more kilos, the love story runs out the door!

Some say love is just a high,
Like drugs, it lasts for a while and then bye bye!

Some say, love is sacred and alive, no matter what others might think,
It can take over your sorrow and make your soul smile in a blink!

I say love is rare,
When it’s true, it’s hard to tear…

I say love is real,
If you have faith in it, you’ll gladly fall under its wheel…

I say love is there,
If you’re willing to walk that extra mile, if you really truly care…

The Sparkle In Your Eyes

2011-07-24T01:03:00.001-07:00

I looked out my window at the silvery moon,
Somewhere in its rays, I saw your image.
Painted by the starry glow of the night sky,
Illuminating the shady curtains with the sparkle in your eyes
Then my heart glows with utmost delight
At the thought of your soft gentle face filled with sublime light.

Then warm tears of joy sailed down my cheeks.
Refreshing my weary soul like the tiny dew drops
On the thirsty field. As I recalled how with your love me you conquered.
My soul you mystified by your regal smile ‘n’ enthralled
By your affection, I grew wings to touch my dreams.
And thanked the heavens for such sweet love.

I pictured the sparkle in your eyes when you smile.
Which the stars tried to mimic with their dazzle,
Still the night yearn for your touch, as my soul does for your
sublime light that elucidates the heavens.
I realized I never knew a heart could speak
Such soft tunes that send thrills down my spine
And I know within your love filled arms I’ve found a home

Though the vast ocean of nothingness tears us apart,
Yet I feel a synchrony of emotions fierce as hell’s furies
As my heart is enflamed by the sparkle in your eyes.
Though sadden by our physical separation ‘n’ entwined by intense desire
The rhythm of your love echoes in my veins like a thousand chords.
As the beat of your heart rhyme with my thoughts,
My palpitating heart was pacified when I realized how much I loved you

Meant To Live

2011-07-24T01:02:00.000-07:00

Shut the door forever
Cause that's the only way I knew
When someone leaves your life
You shut out your family too.
Alone on rainy nights
Cause I ignored their every call
When people leave your life
You can't get back them all.
Walking towards the bridge
Cause I felt I had to end it
When pain overtakes your heart
You feel nothing can mend it.
Got a call from someone
Who was gonna jump the bridge
I told them not to do it
Because our lives are meant to live.
We both turned around
Cause of what we learned that day
When someone leaves your life
You can start to go astray.
We met and talked for hours
Cause we both needed advice
He gave me love and wisdom
And I started to live my life.
Smiling for the first time
Cause I knew what I felt was real
When someone comes into your life
Your heart can start to heal.
So I'm glad I got a call from someone
Who was gonna jump the bridge
Because I told them not to do it
And now I know, we're meant to live.

The Cries Of Lonely Soul

2011-07-24T01:00:00.000-07:00

What should I do this time?
I don't know why, but my life's not fine
My brother is like a drunk with no life
And I don't have shoulder where I can cry.

God, are you really testing me?
'Cause my heart is dark and I cannot see...
Is this how my life is supposed to be?
Right now, pain is the only thing I feel.

I can't even look at myself in the mirror
I feel like I'm just an error
The pain is such a killer
And is transforming my life into a thriller.

My heart is so weak
And is always falling into evil tricks
I never wanted to become like this
And day by day I'm further from bliss.

Ghost Of A Girl Once Happy

2011-07-24T00:58:00.005-07:00

I'm just the ghost of a girl,
That used to be happy.
Lost inside her world.
Where she could always be free
Free of the lies, and the pain, and the torture.
But as lies are told and rumors spread,
She lost all the friends,
That she had ever had.
Forced to be alone,
Her heartgrows cold.
They say shes a freak
A human disgrace.
They want her to die, just like her friend,
And they tell her so.
Should she listen? She doesnt know.
Shes not wanted,
At home or in society.
What she did she hardly knows,
She just wanted to help.
But they just slapped a labbel on her
"Emo Freak"
Because she darred to be different.
She stood up for the emo.
She was a dreamer,
A believer, in what she thought was right.
And when she thought helping was right,
She was punished for it.
Left by herself now,
She misses that boy,
He was different,
He was just like her.
But as everything grew worse for him
She had to let him go.
Over the edge,
Off the bride.
With a fatal fall, and a brokenbody.
He left her behind.
Withall the bad people.
She's truely alone in her world
Her onlyhappyness, snatched right out of her life.
Because the people around her,
Allowed no freaks.
She's next she knows it.
She waits for it to be over.
Shes truely the ghost of a girl
That used to be happy.

Trust!

2011-07-18T10:03:00.000-07:00

I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST YOU.
I THOUGHT I COULD LEAN ON YOU.
BUT YOU HURT ME
AND YOU MADE MY HEART SKIP AND MOVE FASTER THAN THE BEAT
EVEN THOUGH I HEAR NO BEAT
RIGHT NOW, I FEEL THE HEAT
RUNNING OUT THROUGH MY VEINS
ALL THE WAY FROM MY BRAINS.
YOU MAY NOT BE THE BEST
AND I MAY NOT BE THE FIRST
BUT WE CAN ALWAYS WORK IT OUT AND MAKE IT LOOK FRESH
YOU MAY BE A LITTLE SILLY
AND I MAY BE A LITTLE CRAZY
BUT BABY,
SOMETIMES WE FIGHT
OTHER TIMES WE CRY
BUT I ALWAYS HAVE YOU TIGHT
'CAUSE I KNOW THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT
JUST LIKE THE SUN LIGHT
YOU HAVE TO ALWAYS REMEMBER
THAT WE WILL ALWAYS BE TOGETHER
AND THAT'S WHY I LOVE YOU LIKE THAT
I WILL NEVER DO ANYTHING TO HURT YOU
I FEEL EVERY PAIN YOU GO THROUGH
JUST LIKE HOW I KNOW YOUR FAVORITE COLOR IS BLUE
YES I KNOW YOU MAY NOT LIKE ALL THE THINGS THAT I DO
IT COMES BACK AND HURT ME WHENEVER I HAVE TO TAKE OUT A TISSUE
AND WIPE AWAY MY TEAR
I KNOW YOU DON'T WANNA HEAR
ME OUT BUT I'VE GOT NO FEAR
OF LOOSING WHAT I HAVE RIGHT HERE
JUST TO BE WITH YOU
TILL THE DAY OF DOOM
ALL I GOTTA SAY IS I LOVE YOU

You Left Me!

2011-05-10T16:35:00.000-07:00

You watched me when I fell
You watched me when I broke
I'm getting so sick of you
And all that you wrote
I watched it all fade away
When I thought it would end
You just came up to me
and said we'll be friends
You looked at me when I said no
And you knew it was the end
for you and me baby
don't waste your time my friend
Even after you moved away I still felt sad
But then I asked my self
"Why did you fall for his stupid tricks,
And all his stupid cliques?"
Thats when I realized how stupid I was and by then
YOU WERE GONE.

Broken Walls

2011-04-24T00:02:00.001-07:00

I want you to know I care
What you're going through, You're nightmare.
I'll be with you all the way
All night, All day.
If you are in trouble
If every step is a stumble.
Just call for me
And I'll help you see.
I'll be your eyes
When your true sight dies.
I won't let you be alone
Because you saw me, when I wasn't shown.
You broke down my walls
You heard my silent calls.
You found my broken heart
You didn't even know where to start.
You made it further than everyone before
They cared about themself more.
So just take my hand, And I'll guide you
As long as you guide me too.
Standing together
Or standing apart.
We are forever
Always in our heart.

Rising from Ashes - If My Nerves Had Lips sds

2011-04-23T16:48:00.000-07:00

If my nerves had lips...

They would shout: Enough is enough!
They would bite them so hard that I could taste the blood,
"I am bored of being strong and acting tough;
This crap is just too much, rummaging me like a raging flood"!

If my heart had claws...

It would have ripped itself from its current space!
Because there's only this much a heart can take,
It would have run off to be far; in a better place!
The pain it's being forced into is causing it to break!

If my ears had hands...

They would have kept away from words,
In silence their haven would have been!
They would have shone away from the herds,
Since on being here I have never been keen!

:~Birthday Suicide~:

2011-04-23T16:46:00.001-07:00

~*~
Eye’s opened up to a new day
~
Plans set, the mind feels okay
~
But the harsh words were etched into the heart
~
Demons came to visit bringing their melancholy art
~
Broken fear shattered
~
Thoughts become insane and battered
~
Hatred invites itself bringing its friends
~
Anger stabs the mind, disturbing it: Does the means justify the ends?
~
Hallucinations become worse, voices screams insanity into the head
~
The soul prays to be dead
~
Balloons popped by Depressions pin
~
The heart begins to dwell on a fatal sin
~
Though deep inside it wants to win
~
Trapped in its mind, the pathway to hope seems dim
~
Candles are cracked in half
~
No more wishes, the cake is smashed
~
No partying with family and friends, only with depression
~
Carnal minded scrabbled theory interprets distraction
~
Sucked in a tormenting vortex
~
Words become mixed and complex
~
A birthday suicide was slightly committed
~
Interaction with the notion: easily submitted
~
For the soul died the day it was born
~
It needed a resurrection
~
A brand new foundation
~
Falling into a cocooned dream
~
Changes begin inside of the crystal chrysalis, threading poetic seams
~
A transition is taking place
~
Sedation pills swallowing up space
~
A new conscious emerges, a distinct form is birthed
~
A symbol of humility was created, a lullaby them bloomed from the earth
~
The dark thoughts were left in the chrysalis
~
Fear disappeared into a glassy mist
~
Kind words were exchanged
~
Forgiveness was placed into the heart, breaking hatreds pride
~
Strength was built; there will be no birthday suicide
~
Happiness has chased away sorrow
~
Now there’s hope for tomorrow
~*~

.:. Feel Me, Read Me, See Me .:.

2011-04-23T16:44:00.000-07:00

Read me like a puzzle; with all of its missing pieces,
Like a children's book which you read to your nieces!

Dive into my complications...
Live my realizations...

Hear me like a lullaby; see how two could become one;
As if joined, share my joy and the sweat from an endless run...

Come into my revelations,
Ride the aspirations...

See me, as I am and not whom you expect me to be,
Like a ship at bay; still not ready to sail out to the sea...

Walk by my insanities,
Decipher my realities...

Feel me, like a winter's chill or a summer's fall,
Like an old lady's smile and a baby's first crawl!

I'm nothing but a boy finding me way through...
I'm nothing but a boy with many keys and no clue!

Flowers On The Grave

2011-03-23T15:44:00.000-07:00

Little voices leave

A soft spoken word

with an important meaning

that often goes unheard.

Silent cries

in the middle of the night,

for words disregarded,

only to start a fight.

Tear drops fall

from a thousand faces

for the girl

that's left no traces.

Pictures on her casket,

flowers on the grave,

the memories of a girl,

no one cared to save.

Her mother is torn,

her father feels no pain.

Without her around,

he has so much more to gain.

He never wanted

a little girl anyway.

But her teachers never noticed,

and her mother wouldn't say.

Using various techniques,

she hid the bruises on her face.

The markings on her arms,

She covered in ribbons and lace.

Friendships didn't last

And her boyfriends never stayed.

She built a tower in her heart,

Slowly, the walls decayed.

But all of that doesn't matter,

He's ready for this strife,

She gave him what he wanted,

And he took her life.

Life Goes On

2011-03-23T15:41:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you make A's, Ocassionaly B's,
The future holds the answer,
Just wait and see.
Life goes on.
Accomplishments, recognition,
You feel special and alive!
but, now the momnts ended,
You must continue to strive.
Life goes on.
Friends are special,
Some come and go,
Some stay forever,
But the lasting takes time to show.
Life goes on.
for every life that leaves this world,
amidst tears with their dying,
Somewhere else a child is born,
Joyously, kicking and crying.
Life goes on.
Elder loved ones leave us:
We hold their memories close to our heart,
Throughout our lives their lessons and love
will always be a part.
Life goes on.
As loved ones die, New babies come,
We love them just the same.
It's with pride we welcome them,
To carry on our names.
Life goes on.
What today may seem a tragedy,
Tomorrow might be brighter.
Let's consider it on an other day,
When are moods are brighter.
Life goes on.

Death Certificate

2011-03-23T15:39:00.000-07:00

"Do you remember when we were best friends? When we'd share our every thought? Every smile? And every laugh? Oh, and did you remember when you broke my heart? Because I seem to remember that more than anything. I trusted you, I trusted you to take care of my heart.I trusted you not to take it and stomp on it.

I wished on every

Fallen eye lash,

I wished on

Every star,

But it seems

Like every time I try

I gain just one

More scar.

I can’t take your pity.

You don’t have

To forgive me

For my sins.

The only thing

I ask of you

Is can you please,

Just be my friend.

You are no better

Than me or them.

We are all the same.

But when your knife

Is in my back,

Is the only time

You’re content.

You shout harsh words,

But we’re the same.

You hurt,

Just like me.

And when you’re hurt,

You bleed.

I bleed for you.

You never knew.

You were caught up

In your own

little games,

and you wouldn’t

even listen

when I said,

“My soul died

That night.”

You wonder what

Happened.

Why can’t I speak?

Because all your

Words were hurtful,

And when I hurt

I bleed.

But you don’t

Understand,

The scars are

Making me weak.

I can’t take your pity.

You don’t have

To forgive me

For my sins.

The only thing

I ask of you

Is can you please,

Just be my friend.

I’m lying

In the darkness.

You’re hiding

From yourself.

If you were

My friend,

You never would

Have left me

On the shelf.

The tears I shed

Are for the ones

You’ve failed.

Their not only mine,

It’s them as well.

Your family.

Your friends.

And you.

I tried to help you

Break down the wall,

But every chance

You watched me fall.

I wished on every

Fallen eye lash,

I wished on

Every star,

But it seems

Like every time I try

I gain just one

More scar.

I’ll be waiting

In the darkest corner.

When you finally

Realize who you are.

While you are out there

Living your life

Just remember

My soul

Died that night.

Give it some time

Yours is on it’s way.

And as you’re

Slowly trying

To salvage the remains.

I’ll be waiting,

While I’m

Filling out your

Death certificate.

Skin & Bones

2011-03-23T15:37:00.001-07:00

Hurry up get skinny. Do it fast,
Eat less run more, make it last.
Don’t ever stop, just keep on going,
Do everything you can to keep him from knowing.
If he finds out he’ll hate you, just like he hates her,
Things will never go back to the way they once were.
Keep on going until your body breaksdown,
Keep on going, until you’re no longer around.
Hide behind a lie, hide behind clothes,
Hide in a place noone ever goes.
Don’t worry, he wont notice. He wouldn’t even look.
All he’ll ever see is the cover of a book.
Just stand quiet, just stand still,
He doesn’t care and he never will.

.:. A Cradle for My Sleepless Soul .:.

2011-03-23T15:36:00.002-07:00

In you, I have unearthed a cradle for my sleepless soul,
I've found you a temporary escape into my heart's parole!

With you, I float in an air of lightness and a hushed serenity,
I've found you a branch to hold onto a few steps from insanity!

Beside you, I feel as whole as a full moon on a summer's night,
I've found your beats a haven and in your rhythms I see the light!

As I hear you, I unfold, fold and unfold again, again and again,
I've found you to be my "happy pill", the lift and the crane!

As I live you, I am unplugged from the chaos inside my head,
I've found you to be the time when all thoughts to go to bed!

Sweet music: you are never the cause and always the cure,
The only true friend I have; always guiding me to the way to endure...

Can't You See That I Love You

2011-03-23T15:36:00.001-07:00

Beat up and bruised by my own selfish desires,
I can say I love you,
I can go out on a wire.
But my courage halts,
and I trip up my words.
I know that this has got to be my fault.
But it's no one's fault but yours.
You made me love you,
and you caught my heart with lures.
Now I'm in my own trap,
And there is no question why.
I'm stuck with my words and what they have meant,
and you're about to say good-bye.
I grab your arm as you're turning away,
and you question me.
I shudder under your gaze,
and you say I'm weird.
"Can't you see I love you," I whisper,
But I wasn't heard.
I let go of your arm and sadly walk away,
all the while hoping you would see me.
Maybe you will notice me and my love for you one day.

Trapped

2011-03-23T15:33:00.003-07:00

In my own mind, I wake up trapped
Just like I did when I fell asleep
The world is a movie that I watch while wrapped
In endless thoughts that scream and weep
Like a leafless tree I stand tall yet clueless
Wondering what the next step should be
Every solution I produce turns out to be useless
And every one around me is too blind to see
In my own heart, there are a billion questions
About love, hope, family, life and chances
I try hard to answer it back with empty suggestions
Avoiding its doubtful and attacking glances
Like a headless bird I fly, with no direction
Aiming towards something I don't even know
Needing more than warmth; purer protection
Like a little girl, lost in the big white snow
Stuck in limbo, been there for years now
Every shore I reach seems like a trap
To life's unfunny tricks I give a fat bow
While I count every disappointment and mishap

.:. The Illusion of Happiness .:.

2011-03-23T15:32:00.000-07:00

On an autumn's morning, I get up and breathe in,
Lying to myself that the breaths which follow will be pure...
I push a smile on a tired face with no roots from within,
Another pre-broken promise to my soul that this pain I can endure!

On an autumn's morning, I carry a book and read,
Lying to myself that the words I read will elevate my misery...
I push away a negative thought yet a 100 others breed,
Another desperate attempt to herd away the painful imagery!

On an autumn's morning, I try to make sense of it all,
Lying to myself that the sense might make sense to me...
I push away regret and it comes bouncing back like a ball,
Another fake hope that it could, maybe, hopefully, set me free!

On an autumn's morning, I finally realize my illusions:
Things will never change; accept them the way they are...
I push away the pretenses and the million confusions:
Hope is fake, attempts are desperate and happiness is far!

"Peek into"...EARTH'S FUTURE..

2011-03-05T23:55:00.000-08:00

Earth- "Dramatic changes will soon be taking place;
Not only for me, but the entire human race.
I see old people getting younger everyday;
and the newspapers have only nice things to say!

"People are coming back, like Noah and Able;
but without wheelchairs and canes, they walk very stable.
Some are throwing their glasses and hearing aids away!
And look! I see a man tossing his toupee!

"Hospitals and graves are gone from the land;
No oil or dead fish in the ocean sand.
I see nothing but beauty all over the place;
There's no more trash, not even a trace!

"No sound of machine guns, no anguish of war;
No dread of someone missing, that knock on the door.
Instead I see peace, as people walk around;
All boarders are open, there's no battleground.

"There's plenty of food, so much to go around;
Everyone's growing fruit on their own piece of ground.
The variety and taste is overwhelming, and what's more...
they say it's way better than canned food from the store!

"The zoos have opened their gates, you no longer pay admission;
to see the animals now, there's been a changed condition.
I see a teenager playing with a lion, it's really quite a sight,
there's no fear of the animals anytime, day or night!

"There's no more concern about global warming;
Everything's in balance, a total transforming!
Everyone still enjoys Winter, Spring, Summer and fall;
There's just not the extremes, that's all!

"These changes are coming soon, I promise it won't be long;
Jehovah will undo the damage of everything that's gone wrong.
This is the future that I foresee;
A promise by God, his guarantee...

We'll be here forever... earth, man and sea!!!

Suicide Note

2011-03-05T23:52:00.001-08:00

I Tried To Fight The Pain
But I Lost That War
I Tried To Remain Sane
But I Couldnt Stand Anymore
I Tried To Run Away
And Hide All The Scars
But That Didnt Work
Now I Sit And Gaze The Stars
I Tried To Find A Solution
But My Brain Couldnt Manage
It Seems Life Has Killed Me
And Did Alot Of Damage
I Cant Pretend That Im Alright
It Just Wont Work
And Everytime I Try To
It Gives Me A Erk
Life Is Hard And Painful
It Hurts Really Bad
I Cant Help Butthink
That Iv Gone Mad
This Knife In My Hand
Is Taking Over My Thoughts
Its Becoming A Soldier
In The War I Once Faught
As I Say Goodbye
And Tears Roll Down My Face
I Want You To Remember
That I Once Took Place...

You

2011-03-05T23:51:00.000-08:00

I Loved You
I Cared For You
I Adored You
I Cherrished You
I Gave You My All
And Alls You Did Was Let Me Fall
You Lead Me On To This Lie
You Let Me Believe You Tried
You Were The Cause Of My Cry
And Now I Say Goodbye
I Cant See You
I Dont Know You
I Only Have A Memory
Full Of All The Things You Do
I Remember Ur Scream
I Remember Ur Threats
I Remember Ur Lies
And I Now Have Regrets
Its A Good Thing I Let You Go
No Tellin What You Couldve Done
Dont Worry My Darling
This Game Has Just Begun...

A Day In The Life Of A Teenage Girl

2011-03-05T23:49:00.000-08:00

Pressure to be perfect, the need to be cool
Bad grades & dress codes, skanks and tools
Makeup & perfume, Abercrombie & Fitch
Your whole week being ruined; by some stupid b●tch
Boys that we love who never look our way
Best friends & iPods that get us through the day
Drama, backstabbing, rumors and lies
Moments when you fall apart and just want to cry
Those desperate days when nothing goes right
Feeling alone on sleepless nights
Finding our way through this mixed up world,
A day in the life
Of a teenage girl

White Flag

2011-03-05T23:28:00.001-08:00

---------------------------------------------------------
The dirt under my fingernails
have stained out shameless flag.
Throughout the whole day,
it remained clean,
soft,
prideful.
But the moment we grasped upon it,
we realized that our past lust and passion
was reckless.
And now
we shall pay for our lack
of strength,
by waving that
shame-full white flag in the wind.
--------------------------------------------------

I Need You

2011-02-24T16:53:00.001-08:00

Upon a dark and stormy night, you left me alone.
You left and walked away, I wept for what seemed like days.
I thought that we could be together, but its true that your a soldier and you had to go and fight.
I'm sorry I cried, but it hurt to see you leave.
I knew that I may never see your beautiful eyes, or glare upon your handsome face again.
I wish this war were over and you could return to me, I love you, truly and always.
If you were here we could be together, I can't stand your absence.
In the mornings when I wake you aren't around to whisper sweet nothings to me.
I need you and cannot be without you.
Please return to me unharmed, I need your arms to protect me, and your love to surround me.
I promised myself I'd never give anyone everything, but you, you're different, and my everything is yours, but I need you here to receive my love.

Take Another

2011-02-24T16:48:00.000-08:00

It's almost gone.
I wish I had more.
Of happy, that is, which is going fast.
Maybe I could have another shot.
To tell the truth, I don't got a lot.
Maybe a friend would do,
But they wouldn't know what to do.
No one likes a gal without a smile.
All we ever want is another chance,
To make things right.
Whatever it takes to get through the night.
A wince, or a crooked smile,
Is better than frowning for a while.
Which is what I do.
All the time,
They say it's a crime.
But what else can I see?
Where else can I go?
People don't like a girl without confidence.
And there is nothing to say in my defense.
No one looks at me,
And if they do, they look away.
But so you know, there's more to life,
Then just a lot of boring days.
To you, I say,
Take another.
Of everything you can, air, laughs, days,
Whatever isn't willing to pay.
Please, when you're old and dying
Alone and crying
Never laughing
Continually gasping
And grasping at that last bit of life,
You'll know what I mean.

.: The Only Way To Prevent A Broken Heart Is To Not Have One At All :.

2011-02-24T16:40:00.000-08:00

Hate

Sabatoge

The stabbing pain

As you plant the knife in back

Friends?

We were ever?

Lovers?

We were never!

Because it didn’t take you even a moment

To think twice

And betray me

Deceit

A sickening six letter word

It snaps

Bites

And kills those who believe

I gave you my trust

That was my mistake

Because trusting you took a while

But taking that trust

And smashing it

Until nothing was left

Didn’t take long at all

Mere seconds

For you it’s an

Obsession

Hesitating?

Impossible

You are so used to

Hurting the ones you love

How do i know?

Your knife is stained with

The blood

Of past betrayals

And that sickening smile

Never leaves your face

The sly sneer

And that captivating stun

You get in your eye

When the deed is done

And the

Betrayed

Is broken down on the floor

Begging for mercy

Its hurts

Having this poor ol heart

Shattered

The devastation

Never leaves

It lingers

Killing

But i have a little secret

Your attempts are useless

Because betrayal only hurts those

Who have a heart

And my dear

I have learned

The only way to prevent a broken heart

Is not to have one

At all

Beautiful Brown Eyes ♥

2011-02-24T16:36:00.001-08:00

The world came crashing down,
My smile slipped to a frown,
Yet you listened to all the lies,
Staring with your beautiful brown eyes.
Mistake, Freak, So many flaws,
Said things that would make them drop their jaws,
Yet your reaction left me standing surprised,
When you turned and left with your beautiful brown eyes.
Your words cut into my heart,
Didn't think we would ever be apart,
In the night you don't hear the sweet cries,
Begging and pleading for your beautiful brown eyes.
I will love you forever and a day,
And for everything I cost you I will surely pay,
Yet I'm willing to say the last of my lies,
I'm over it all and your beautiful brown eyes.
♥

When You’re At Your Lowest, Remember Me...

2011-02-24T16:32:00.000-08:00

You make me absolutely speechless.

My life would be utterly meaningless

Without you standing by my side

On this oh so wild ride.

It seems like we’re a perfect fit,

Even if you’re my complete opposite.

With all honesty,

You mean the world to me.

Each and every day that passes,

My heart dashes

Faster than humanly possible.

Who knew that we’d be a couple?

With a guy so true,

How could a girl be blue?

Your compliments make me blush,

Making my heart rush.

You always think you’re not enough,

But you shouldn’t be so tough

On yourself, my love.

I swear you were sent from above.

I don’t know how I got so lucky.

You’re filled with such a beauty;

You’ve got a heart of gold,

And oh the talents you behold.

If love is a crime, then we’re culprits.

With you there are no secrets;

I’ve never felt more content.

Every waking moment that we’ve spent

Together has been beyond words.

The world is full of heartless bastards,

Picking at our perfect world.

But we won’t let if come uncurled.

We’re both strong individuals, but together

We are even stronger.

Love is the strongest weapon,

Separating us from the fallen.

So my dear, never think you’re alone,

Because you are not on your own.

Always remember me,

And you’ll see,

Happiness is more than a dream.

Crashing Waves

2011-02-24T16:25:00.000-08:00

I want to drive away to the sunrise and the crashing waves,
Taken by the meadow of grass and singing country songs,
I want to sink my feet in the sand and let the stress fade,
Quietness in the world, because I am the only one walking along,
All alone with my own thoughts, against the never ending sea,
Seeking at the fog that surrounds the mountains, like a beautiful picture
A slow, peaceful melody dances in my head, and I close my eyes in glee,
As the feelings inside me glisten to happy, and become one big mixture.

I want to drive away there, and never return.
To stand at the shoreline, arms crossed at my chest,
So, I got in my car, and drove because my heart turned.
The roads that lead me there, I always knew best.
I took shortcuts, and stopped the car in a sandy parking spot.
I started walking towards the steps to sea level, and saw a bit of blue.
People were still here, laughing, talking about the fish they caught.
This wasn't exactly right, but moments like this can help it come true.
It made me take one step back to look at my life, and I smiled at the sun rising in the sky.
I breathed in a few breaths of air, closed my eyes, and for the first time...
I felt like I could fly.

The Mountain Painter

2011-02-24T16:23:00.000-08:00

In valleys green, amongst the crystal lakes,
I calmly lay under the amber sun,
It's rays embracing me like mother's warmth
As I now close my eyes in pleasant thought.
Envisioning this Eden that surrounds
And what these calloused hands shall bring to life,
My heart is stricken with such thoughts of glee
And inspiration shines in sudden burst.
I now breathe in the moistened, mountained air,
Giving my lungs relief from summer's heat.
I taste the freshened dew of early morn'
So cool to tongue and sweet upon my lips.
Today, I lose myself in my sweet craft
And start to work with canvas and paintbrush.
Oh how the purple mountains do reach the sky
And reflect on the crystal lakes, like glass!
Where does the sky begin and earth falter?
Oh how the sea of green does overwhelm
With towering trees and endless grassy fields.
How lovely are the golden daffodils
Waving amongst the wind like ocean waves.
And as the amber sun now fades away,
It's dimming hues bring forth the coming night.
My canvas, I must put away till dawn,
And start again upon first morning light.

UK & USA Little Brother Hetalia

2011-02-24T16:21:00.000-08:00

If I held your hand,

Would you run away?

Would you run away, from me?

If I pulled you close,

Would you turn away?

Or would you pull me closer?

That day in the rain,

Was a turning point for me.

My gun pointed at your chest,

Tears streaming down my face.

You look at me,

With those deep, deep blue eyes.

And I realize,

It can't end like this.

Pull me close.

Before I cry.

Let me tell you something.

All those years,

When you were growing up,

My love for you was too.

Oh, little brother.

I love you.

Sweet Darkness...

2011-02-01T22:30:00.000-08:00

When your eyes are tired
The world is tired also.
When your vision has gone
no part of the world can find you.
Time to go into the dark
where the night has eyes
to recognize its own.
There you can be sure
you are not beyond love.
The dark will be your womb
tonight.
The night will give you a horizon
further than you can see.
You must learn one thing:
the world was made to be free in.

Give up all the other worlds
except the one to which you belong.
Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet
confinement of your aloneness
to learn
anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive
is too small for you

A Reason, A Season, Lifetime...

2011-02-01T22:27:00.000-08:00

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.They have come to assist you through a difficulty; to provide you with guidance and support; to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

The Great Work

2011-02-01T22:22:00.001-08:00

Love
Is the great work
Though every heart is first an
Apprentice

That slaves beneath the city of Light.

This wondrous trade,
This magnificent throne your soul
Is destined for-

You should not have to think
Much about it,

Is it not clear
An apprentice needs a teacher
Who himself

Has charmed the universe
To reveal its wonders inside his cup.

Happiness is the great work,
Though every heart must first become
A student

To one
Who really knows
About Love.

Love's Philosophy

2011-02-01T22:20:00.001-08:00

The fountains mingle with the river,
And the rivers with the ocean;
The winds of heaven mix forever
With a sweet emotion;
Nothing in the world is single;
All things by a law divine
In another's being mingle--
Why not I with thine?

See, the mountains kiss high heaven,
And the waves clasp one another;
No sister flower could be forgiven
If it disdained its bro...

What Is The Most Important Part Of The Body

2010-10-18T13:35:00.000-07:00

My mother used to ask me what the most important part of the body is.
Through the years I would take a guess at what I thought was the correct Answer.

When I was younger, I thought sound was very important to us as humans, so I said, 'My ears, Mommy.'

She said, 'No. Many people are deaf. But you keep thinking about it and I will ask you again soon.'

Several years passed before she asked me again. Since making my first attempt, I had contemplated the correct answer.

So this time I told her, 'Mommy, sight is very important to everybody, so it must be our eyes.'

She looked at me and told me, 'You are learning fast, but the answer is not correct because there are many people who are blind.'

Stumped again, I continued my quest for knowledge and over the years,
Mother asked me a couple more times and always her answer was, 'No. But you are getting smarter every year, my child.'

Then one year, my grandfather died. Everybody was hurt. Everybody was crying. Even my father cried.

I remember that especially because it was only the second time I saw him cry.
My Mom looked at me when it was our turn to say our final good-bye to my Grandfather.

She asked me, 'Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?'
I was shocked when she asked me this now. I always thought this was a game between her and me.

She saw the confusion on my face and told me, 'This question is very important. It shows that you have really lived in your life.
For every body part you gave me in the past, I have told you were wrong and I have given you an example why.

But today is the day you need to learn this important lesson.'
She looked down at me as only a mother can. I saw her eyes well up with tears. She said,
'My dear, the most important body part is your shoulder.'

I asked, 'Is it because it holds up my head?'

She replied, 'No, it is because it can hold the head of a friend or a loved one when they cry.
Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear. I only hope that you have enough love and friends
that you will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it.'

Then and there I knew the most important body part is not a selfish one. It is made for others and not for yourself. It is sympathetic to the pain of others.

People will forget what you said. People will forget what you did. But people will NEVER forget how you made them feel.

The origination of this letter is unknown.

Good friends are like stars...You don't always see them, but you always know they are there.

PREVENT CHILD ABUSE

2010-10-10T08:21:00.000-07:00

Child abuse leaves more than just bruises. Long after children have recovered from the physical results of a beating, abused children suffer from emotional and psychological trauma that can last the rest of their lives.
Adults who experienced child abuse in their youth are more likely to abuse drugs and alcohol, commit violent crimes, form unhealthy relationships, and even abuse their own children.
Unfortunately, many bystanders witness child abuse and do nothing about it. Neighbors and friends may hear or even see child abuse happening, but don't want to intrude or interfere with "the rights" of the parents. Such inaction can mean years of pain and heartbreak for young children who are unable to get out of a bad situation.
Abused children need your intervention. In their helplessness, they must rely on capable adults who are willing to take a stand and get them out of an abusive environment. By being aware of child abuse, and helping to educate the people you know, you can help prevent child abuse in your community.

Learn about child abuse. Educate yourself by taking the Myths and Realities About Child Abuse Quiz. Keep these key facts in mind:

Child abusers can be any age, any gender, and any race. They can be from any economic class and have any level of education.
Children are more likely to be abused by their own parents than by a stranger.
Rarely does an incident of child abuse happen in isolation. When a child is abused once, it is likely to happen again.
Educate your neighbors and friends about child abuse. Consider emailing your acquaintances a link to this article. Or, ask an official from a local domestic violence shelter to speak to your neighborhood group, church association, PTA, or other organization. They are usually more than willing to share what they know about how to prevent child abuse.

I see you from afar and hold you close to my Heart

2010-09-10T09:27:00.000-07:00

~ Finding LoVE through my windows ~

My eyes are an intimate part of my body,
...they hold my deep and darkest secrets,
left alone with my thoughts,
looking through the window of the world,
I found a LoVE to share my dark secrets,
my laughter and my sorrows.

You looked into my heart and see the inner me,
that has never been revealed,
You share my secrets I hold inside,
you have become an intricate part of my life,
we share so many deepest memories,
and our friendship blossomed.

With my thoughts I wonder where you are,
I search for you within and find you in my heart,
I still hear your voice,
I feel your caress,
I sit in the dark and remember,
and I have to confess.....
you are the essence of my
heart and soul.

I am so glad my eyes locked with yours,
for now you are my most inner,
and fondest memory my life has ever known.

LoVING you comes easy,
you complete me,
you are the essence of my soul that fulfills my life.

for you are the key that fits my soul...

Dare to Be!

2010-08-20T07:25:00.002-07:00

When something seems difficult, dare to do it anyway.
When life seems to beat you down, dare to fight back.
When there seems to be no hope, dare to find some.
When you’re feeling tired, dare to keep going.
When times are tough, dare to be tougher.
When love hurts you, dare to love again.
When someone is hurting, dare to help them heal.
When another is lost, dare to help them find the way.
When a friend falls, dare to be the first to extend a hand.
When you cross paths with another, dare to make them smile.
When you feel great, dare to help someone else feel great, too.
When the day has ended, dare to feel as you’ve done your best.
Dare to be the best you can-
At all times, Dare to be!

Do Not...

2010-08-20T07:25:00.000-07:00

Do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others.
It is because we are different that each of us is special.

Do not set your goals by what other people deem important.
Only you know what is best for you..

Do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past nor for the future.
By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life.

Do not give up when you still have something to give.
Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
It is a fragile thread that binds us to each other....

Do not be afraid to encounter risks.
It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

Do not shut love out of your life by saying it is impossible to find.
The quickest way to receive love is to give love; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly.

Do not dismiss your dreams.
To be without dreams is to be without hope; to be without hope is to be without purpose.

Do not run through life so fast that you forget not only where you have been, but also where you are going.
Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way.

Look To This Day

2010-08-20T07:16:00.001-07:00

Look To This Day
For it is life,
The very life of life.
In its brief course lie all
The realities and verities of existence,
The bliss of growth,
The splendor of action,
The glory of power . . .

For yesterday is but a dream,
And tomorrow is only a vision.
But today, well lived,
Makes every yesterday a dream of happiness
And every tomorrow a vision of hope.
Look well, therefore, to this day.

My Mentor & My Role Model

2010-08-18T10:06:00.000-07:00

Tsao Fu Nien who is famously known by the name Ama Joyce in Ghana but known as Ferret in Taiwan as her nickname. She is sexy, smashing, elegant and just think of all the nice things that you can say to a lady for her. She is 23 years of age and she does not want to get any younger. She is from Taiwan and was born in Kaohsiung and she attends The National Tsing Hua University in Taiwan. She is at the Dept. of Foreign Language and Literature(wow she is offering the same course with me even though I am in Senior High School). Actually she does not really have a favorite food but she loves to each Chocolate and all kinds of Taiwanese snacks.She likes to listen to all kind of music but her best type is Pop Music, soft rock and bossa nova. She likes to watch all kind of movies which attract her. She likes to play card games and she loves reading, writing, music, biking, traveling and playing my favorite game basketball.

She likes to Explorer the World and she dislikes Arrogant men. Well she is single anyway and she is about 158cm tall. Joyce is having one pretty younger sister. Her biggest fear is Lack of progress. What do you think she would do with three wishes. Her first wish is to be wise, her second is to Explorer the world and her third is to be able to help others. She admires people with true, kind heart.If she could speak any language it would be the mental language so that she can communicate with any creature in the universe.

"The kind, cheerful, enthusiastic people and the relaxing atmosphere", that is what she likes about Ghana.

Sexy Lexie

2010-08-17T07:59:00.003-07:00

Yung-Shih Fang is the name of my mentor for 2009 IT training at Winneba Open Digital Village. She is well known as Lexie here in Ghana but people call her Lalu because she uses it in most websites that she registers and not to forget she is beautiful and elegant. She is 24 years of age and I don’t think she wants to get any younger…lol she was born in Taiwan in a popular town called Taipei. She schools at The National Tsing Hua University in Taiwan which is the Famous University in Taiwan. She is offering Physics (wow that is pretty a difficult subject that involves lot of calculations and I am scared of physics). She really loved Grandma’s meal when she was in Ghana and she is still missing it so that is her favorite food. She loves to play poker games and her hobbies are traveling and doing out-door activities. What she likes is to find something new and explorer it and what she dislikes is “Life without Change”. Actually she is single for now and hoping to find Mr. Right I guess. She is about 161.2cm but most people don't believe it but she does insist it is correct, hahaha. She has one elder sister and she is pretty just like her. She has no biggest fear or worry yet.

If she was given three wishes what do you think it would be? Well, her first wish is she would like to have a long trip around the world, meeting new friends and old friends from Ghana. Her second wish is, she wishes to be an expert in music but anyway she is good in one instrument at least. Her last wish is for her to see all the people she loves healthy and happy. She admires one quality most in others which is mentally mature and being stable in different situations. If she could speak any language it would be cat language because she lost her cat which left home but did not know its way back home. She likes to listen to music and her favorite music is Pop, R&B, Rock and Church Songs. She likes to watch lot of movies but her best type is feature film and comedies.

This is what she said about her likeness of Ghana. “Land and people, its friendly people who led me to meet Ghana, a sweet-nature place which makes me feel that I'm so close to the land”.

My Gurl Mentor

2010-08-13T09:42:00.001-07:00

She is Pretty, she is beautiful, she is charming, she is smashing. She is very interested in culture and therefore doing Ghanian culture lessons here. She is from Taiwan in a popular town called Taipei. She attends the National Tsing Hua University in Taiwan. She is offering Life Science and she is really good at it. Her favorite fruit is Pineapple but she has lot of favorite meals and can't predict which is the best. She is not into sport but she likes to watch all kinds of football. Her hobbies are playing the Chinese Flute and watching movies.. What kinda movie do u think she watches? Horror, Action, Comedy, umm Romance? Just keep guessing. She likes so many things but there is one thing she dislike and she is scared of it but I ain’t gonna tell you. ohhh this is the interesting part, well she is Single :) and she is about 160cm ( is that tall for you or short?). She has her younger sister but I don't know if she is my size or younger like me.:p

Since she is offering Life Science, she really likes lot things about Ghanaian culture and Ghana in general. She is working on so many documentations about Ghanaian culture and that makes her to be really hard working. The main thing she likes about Ghana is their Hair Style, some of the animals here and she feels free here because Ghanaian people are so friendly.

Are you trying to tell me you still don't know who she is? Well she is called Yeh-Tzu-Yu and known as Bling here in Ghana. If you want to know more about her you can email me or comment on the post. There is a picture of her, isn't she pretty?